im in Hong Kong....=p

watch so many Hong Kong movies, series, or what so ever
but never been to Hong Kong
yes i did smell the air when i did a turn
and im now in Hong Kong finally,....yeah!!
im so exciting
but its too bad that we touch down at night
or else for sure i will be the first person go out without rest
but even it is at night
but guess what??....
8 crews out of 15 are in the crew room now
wahahaha...most of them are happily drinking
and there is a girl here with me online-ing...hehe
due to the connection problem at home
few days never get to online
i really die-ing already...its really killing me
i couldnt even sleep well without surfing nets just for 3 days??
i just got the feeling like i haven do something
hmm,...but it is ok now
because i just feel like wanna go out and take a walk
i wish i got have anough time to look around
although not a must to go everywhere
but at least i get to shop a little??
and see see look look around??...hehe
that's gonna satisfy me a lot
is 3am now and im gonna "chiong" out at 10am later
i don't care im gonna have a long flight at night
im just too excited
wait for my photos to be uploaded ya??
be patient k,...anyway i cant wait no more.............

first day off in KL

firstly to thanks the first person i met once i touch down in kl
which is Danielle babe
she is the one who drive all the way to pick me up from airport
and drove me to collect my new ic at Kajang
and went Time Square for the first meal of the day
had a short walk and back to Setapak
met Hui Kuan, who has been waiting for me after class
we anyhow prepare and just thought of having "tong sui" at Kepong
just realise none of us actually know how to get there
and actually someone is waiting to see me somewhere
turn here turn there and finally found the way
had a simple dinner with "tong sui"
and continue second round at Station one with another group
although i spend very little time with them
but it was a sweet talking section after all
they simply just my best friend
can tell what's my condition recently just by reading my blog
gals,...i really love ur so damn much
oh ya,...they are Ivana and Cindy
of course they came with some accompany
Ivana, Emma with their love ones
thanks for meeting up though you are not feeling well, Emma
cross over talking here and there
sounds like a busy talking section
i guess it is....because the guys left us to play games
so we all girls talk over there
sure gonna be a little messy huh??...lol
but i had fun doing that
thanks girls driving down to kl for a short meeting up

自己坦白。。。

虽然人是要往前看，往前走的
但如果回头可以让你快乐
请问你愿意回头吗？？
很多时候我们选择逃避
有的时候我们选择隐瞒
但一旦你愿意对自己坦白的时候
你只会比原本来的更痛苦，更无法接受吧！！
往往你选择隐瞒
但这并不代表第三者看不见事实
往往事实也是残酷的
无论你多不想接受，不想承认
自己还是最清楚的
我看清了，也认清了一切
却已不知什么是对是错是好是坏
以为自己已无所谓却只是谎言
只怪一切来得太迟却走得太快
好让我看不清什么是事实
还是一切只是借口让自己逃避
也因为时间过得太快
解决也已经太迟了
也许解决只会让一切变得更复杂
甚至可以让我们努力维持的一切失去平衡点
或许该保持现在拥有的吧
也许哪一天它会默默消失
或是该爆发的时候再说吧！！

useful tips for life...

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old

She is published in The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:"

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone..
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15.. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
25. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?".
26. Always choose life.
27. Forgive everyone everything.
28. What other people think of you is none of your business.
29. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
30. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
31. Don't take yourself so seriously.. No one else does.
32. Believe in miracles.
33. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
34. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
35. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
36. Your children get only one childhood.
37. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
38. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
39. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
40. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
41. The best is yet to come.
42. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
43. Yield.
44. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Sydney trip with international collegues.....

first time flying with crew who are mostly around my batch

there are 8 non-ranking crew

which the 7 of us are actually foreigner....haha

and we decided to hang out once we touch down in Sydney

we take a 5 minutes walk to Darling Harbour

taken our lunch and take the ferry to the Opera House

there are a lot of interesting activities helding around

we just couldn't resist ourselves to join in the fun

Nia was having fun playing with the Gong

and they were playing with the hula hoop

until some guys came over to tell them that is actually for kids,....haha

Varian voice out to say that he is hungry

so we all went for a quite bite in the mall

is time for us to leave for Opera House

check out the scheduled departure time

waiting for the ferry and taking pictures on the boat

we have been using airlines terms in most of our conversations...lol

here we are....the Opera House
there is very crowded and there is someone palying live band downstairs
still we sing and have fun with the music....haha


photo provided by Varian

and he said that we must have touch it since we are here
snap a shot of it.....memory.........hehe

finally a group photo
2 girls from Indonesia
2 girls from Ipoh, Malaysia
and a guy from Singapore...hehe
erm,...and we actually got a man who do not know how to take picture
so it was a unfortunate one
tour ended and is time to go back
Varian guide us the way of walking back to the hotel
and we bought ourselves ice cream before we depart =p
it was a fun trip with you guys
thanks Varian for the guidance on the street and those photo taking
keep in touch girls.....=)

Power Of Money

By Adam Khoo ( Singapore 's youngest millionaire at 26 yrs.)

Some of you may already know that I travel around the region pretty frequently, having to visit and conduct seminars at my offices in Malaysia , Indonesia , Thailand and Suzhou ( China ). I am in the airport almost every other week so I get to bump into many people who have attended my seminars or have read my books.

Recently, someone came up to me on a plane to KL and looked rather shocked. He asked, 'How come a millionaire like you is travelling economy?' My reply was, 'That's why I am a millionaire. ' He still looked pretty confused.

This again confirms that greatest lie ever told about wealth (which I wrote about in my latest book 'Secrets of Self Made Millionaires'). Many people have been brainwashed to think that millionaires have to wear Gucci, Hugo Boss, Rolex, and sit on first class in air travel. This is why so many people never become rich because the moment that earn more money, they think that it is only natural that they spend more, putting them back to square one.

The truth is that most self made millionaires are frugal and only spend on what is necessary and of value. That is why they are able to accumulate and multiply their wealth so much faster. Over the last 7 years, I have saved about 80% of my income while today I save only about 60% (because I have my wife, mother in law, 2 maids, 2 kids, etc. to support). Still, it is way above most people who save 10% of their income (if they are lucky).

I refuse to buy a first class ticket or to buy a $300 shirt because I think that it is a complete waste of money. However, I happily pay $1,300 to send my 2 year old daughter to Julia Gabriel Speech and D ram a without thinking twice.

When I joined the YEO (Young Entrepreneur's Orgn)a few years back (YEO) is an exclusive club open to those who are under 40 and make over $1m a year in their own business) I discovered that those who were self made thought like me. Many of them with net worth well over $5m,travelled economy class and some even drove Toyota 's and Nissans,not Audis, Mercs, BMWs..

I noticed that it was only those who never had to work hard to build their own wealth (there were also a few ministers' and tycoons' sons in the club) who spent like there was no tomorrow. Somehow, when you did not have to build everything from scratch, you do not really value money. This is precisely the reason why a family's wealth (no matter how much) rarely lasts past the third generation.

Thank God my rich dad foresaw this terrible possibility and refused to give me a cent to start my business.

Then some people ask me, 'What is the point in making so much money if you don't enjoy it?' The thing is that I don't really find happiness in buying branded clothes, jewellery or sitting first class. Even if buying something makes me happy it is only for a while, it does not last. Material happiness never lasts, it just give you a quick fix. After a while you feel lousy again and have to buy the next thing which you think will make you happy. I always think that if you need material things to make you happy, then you live a pretty sad and unfulfilled life..
Instead, what makes me happy is when I see my children laughing and playing and learning so fast. What makes me happy is when I see my companies and trainers reaching more and more people every year in so many more countries.

What makes me really happy is when I read all the emails about how my books and seminars have touched and inspired some one's life.

What makes me really happy is reading all your wonderful posts about how this blog is inspiring you. This happiness makes me feel really good for a long time, much much more than what a Rolex would do for me.

I think the point I want to put across is that happiness must come from doing your life's work (be it teaching, building homes, designing,trading, winning tournaments etc.) and the money that comes is only a by-product. If you hate what you are doing and rely on the money you earn to make you happy by buying stuff, then I think that you are living a life of meaninglessness.

i'm missing..........

just to update you guys,....
my sore throat is not recover yet
were chatting with one of my bff
she makes me think of the past

i miss my mum who buy me coconut drink for sore throat
i miss my coursemate who use to force me taking medicine
i miss them who scold me when i steal french fries to eat
i miss my mum who switch off my fan when i complain cold
i miss people who force me to eat when i am on diet
i miss eating mamak at the middle of the night
i miss the moment we wait until 3am just for McD breakfast
i miss running up and down at the middle of the night
i miss the moment we sit at the park to share secrets
i miss cooking dinner for friends
i miss the moment we laugh until we couldn't stop
i miss the time we hang out after class no matter how far the place is
i miss exam time when we do discussion the day before test
i miss swimming together at the pool downstairs
i miss the time we shout at each other at the balcony
i miss the time we wait for one another at the lift before class
i miss travelling with friends no matter how sucks is the place
i miss sharing meal at the end of every month
i miss the small and pack lrt or buses when we use to hang out
i miss the karaoke room where we shout and dance stupidly
i miss we gather everyone just to watch one movie
i miss the moment we gather at someone house to watch DVD
i miss we play music and sing loudly together until we get complain
i miss all of us to squeeze in one car where we couldn't even breath
i miss having meal in a big group where we need to shout when we talk
i miss staying overnight at friend's house and go home only before class
i miss the stupid bday surprise which is always same from JAN to DEC
i miss when we sit down in the canteen and gossip about other people
i miss leaving home for class at 8am and be back at 3am after hang out
i miss few cars to stop by the road just to discuss where to go next
i miss we walk from one block to another to send everyone home

there are too many stupid and crazy stuffs that we had done
not only that i miss student's life
also the moment that we had spent together
no matter is just 2 person or the 20 of us
we just like to make noise everywhere we go
guys,....i really miss you all very very much
everything that i do here, i did it all alone
no longer with the big groups
no longer with the laughters
no longer with the noise
even travelling with a big group of people
but it is different no matter how great the place is
sometimes i just feel like i am alone still
time flies,....it is too fast for me
there are too many things that we couldn't hold on to
what we can do is just look forward and keep going
where are you guys now??
i couldn't feel anyone of you anymore
the distance is not too far yet it is not close anymore
i really miss all those moments we had
i really wish to have a pause once in a while
just to let me feels that you guys are still with me........

a sick me.....=(

finally my business class tratining is over
together with my observing flight for business class
really don't understand why senior expect so much from us
as in 1st or 2nd time working in business class
haven even finish one task and ask for the next task
do i look like a spider??
with 8 hands or legs??
ya,..i admit that i am slow
but at least give me some times to pick up lo
i am fast enough as a new girl lo
can even take meal order for 30 passenger by myself
keep asking me to do something else when i am still doing something
end up the other person will blame me never do that well
sigh....such a tiring flight
i'm sick, work like crazy, and being nag like nobody business
but at least someone will still say thanks for my help
or else they will work til hair falls lo...okay!!

luckily Corinna and Katherine came to pick me for dinner after flight
so feeling better now...haha
it is sweet to have friends pick you up from work
had dinner at the airport, see doctor, buy winnie the pooh,....
went to tampines for a drinks....and order 2 slices of cake
sounds so fattening ho??....
don't care d la....i am sick...need food to gain energy...lol
came home and sleep....my stomach is full of food...........
feels like it is going to burst....haha
but i really enjoy the moment with friends anywhere
as long as there are friends for me
especially in SG

ok come back to my throat
i have never been so sick like this before
and it has been on and off for about one month
never had a sexy voice like now
and i am going to work still
because i don't want to use up my mc
since there is only a turn around flight
anyway i wish it will be over soon
because it is very painful when i talk
can you imagine you gonna talk to 300 passengers??
opps,...it gonna hurt my throat a lot man,.....
anyway...weather gone bad recently
do take care everyone....

2012

Tsunami, SARS, earth quake, H1N1,...etc
will it really be the end of the world in 2012??
from what we saw and what we know
all these are natural disasters
nobody knows why is all this happening
why must all this happening??
isn't it sad to see people lossing their love ones
but why people doesn't seem like appreciate their love ones
until the day they leave them

don't you feel like the God is like giving us warning??
have you ever think that this might be some punishment to humans??
God created such a beautiful world
God brought humans, animals, naturals on earth
but seems like the God creature is being destroyed nowadays
people burn the forest, cut the trees,
people fight within one another
as we can see from the movie
they are going to die the next minute
but still they are fighting
hows the contry or the world gonna be
if only the leader is survive without their populations??
how are they gonna work out a new world??
they know how important they are to give order
but do they ever know that
people who listen to their order??
without these people
nobody gonna help them

what the scientist said is very true
everything will be alright if they help one another
why must people buy for their life??
and even those who paid for it get betrayed
people who put so much effort being abandon
without people who pay for it
without people who build the ship
how are they going to be survive??
rapacity in humans are too strong
which can destroy themselves even the world
don't you think so??
people desire to get higher in place
people desire to be billionaire
people desire to be own everything
people desire to be the top man of the world
anyone out there wish not to be good in everything??
anyone wish not to be rich??
but why can't people help one another in place??
problems can solve in many ways
but they always take the same option
which is to hurt one party to get what they want
aren't they have feeling??
don't they understand that things people have
is from a lot of hard work by themselves??
but those demon can just get it with just an order
or even a sentence of words
how cruel people can be??
are they really happy in life??
i can be so upset just when i said a word which may have hurt someone
but how can they living in the world without feeling guilty??
but when bad things happen
the first thing they will ask for forgiveness
if they know how it can hurt someone so badly
why do they wanna do it in the first place??
humans are complicated
we might not understand ourselves sometimes
how sad it is??

i guess God will wanna see us supporting each other
instead of fighting and hurting each others
no matter what religion we are
no matter what skin colour we are
doesn't matter what's our blood type, whatever it is
i guess we are in the world
just because of the person who create us
He is our father
He create us, create everything for us
so we are all family
like what the America's President announce to the peoples
"we are now family
we are all gonna lives in the dark together"
people have the right to know the truth
so he choose to stay
how great is this leader
he is not afraid of death
he choose to stay with his peoples
to help them and support them at the last moment in life
because without these people he will not be standing on top
leader should stop using their power to bully people
without their support, without teamwork
nothing can be done so well
i believe what is in my mind
we will be happier by helping one another
no matter how small little thing that you have done
you will be satisfy compare to standing up there without respect

anyone can be rich
knowledge in us are more expensive than money
without knowledge you will never get money
you will never get things that you want
do not stand there by saying "envy"
instead work on it, do something to get yourself "rich"
but do it base on your own conscience
people will be willing to support you all the way
instead of stepping on others shoulder without caring their feeling
people,....appreciate life before it is too late
appreciate people around you
God has His reason to arrange them along your way
no matter they are your loves one or your enemy
tell yourself " what goes around, comes around"
no matter how bad the people treated you
do not fight back
they will get it from someone someday
take it as a learning process
never trust people like them in future
from then you will grow up
to be someone much better than them
never do it to any other people
i believe when you treated someone nicely
they will not want to hurt you as well

i use to be one of those
standing there just to see how lucky are the others
but i already understand the principle in it
i have been working hard to get what i want
instead of doing nothing, open my palm and get money

i might get what i want now

people who do not know might think what i am doing now is easy
but they never see the hard work behind it
sometimes simple can be happier
you might not understand
but you will know it when you get to experience it
i have gone through the very hard time
it might be better now
but i want it to be better
at least do things that i really looking for
something which i could feel happier
no matter how difficult it is
i want it to be done
because i want my family to get better life which they deserve
compare to people who are on top of us
and always look down on us
i will never hate them
but i will tell myself to work harder
so i can climb over them
and my family can get over all this unecessary things
what is wrong to have normal and simple life
i never cross over your border
so don't come over ours too
just live your own life and learn to respect people
we are all the same
we are just human being
you yourself do nothing to get what you want
you have no qualification to complain people who work hard
if you keep doing that
end up you yourself will be the one who suffer
think about it yourself
people who have did it to me before
read it with your eyes open!!

Rheinfall in Zurich

it is a miracle to me

that finally there are someone who wanna go out in Zurich

we decide to go to Rheinfall

the biggest waterfall in Europe

from the hotel to the train station

take a train which is about 1 hour journey

here we are

somewhere very near to Rheinfall

we just need to take a bus tram no.1 to the destination

it's only few stations away

thanks for people who helps us along the way

walking down to the Rheinfall

we all were so excited

can't wait to see the biggest waterfall in Europe
erm,...you won't feel anything when you walk down

but it was tiring when you get back

specially during winter....lol

hoho,...this is the waterfall we looking for

and we actually pass by when we are in the train

we thought this isn't the one
because we expect it to be very big n tall....lol

a little disappointment

but still we think this is very nice scenery
so girls,....time to snap

this is winter

there are no greens around

this is good enough for me

at least it looks good in the picture

someone said that it suppose to be nicer during summer

you can see fishes jumping out from the water

and you can take the boat to climb up of the rock

can you see the rock at the middle??

that's the one
and can you see some renovation on the top right??

the local told us that we actually can walk up there as well

but wrong timing for us

they are having renovation....sigh!!

maybe i should come again in summer

i guess this is a very fun journey for four of us

we were talking laughing all the way

taking photos together

thanks for the accompany for this tour

it is now part of my memories =p

my volcano

something which happen too fast too sudden
an irrational decision
a wrong decision
could lead us to an unhappy ending
one party need to be rational
no matter how insane is the other
disappointment vesus heart borken
former would be better than latter
disappointment could be taken away
once heart broken it hardly be heal
latter could lead to long term sadness

problems can be solve in many ways
as road comes with junctions
you choose the one you prefer
humans are always selfish
no right or wrong for being selfish when neccessary
you never know what's next if you refuse to turn in
take a U turn when you regret
it may be somewhere very far away
it may be no U turn along the way
we won't know which is the right way for us
do try even it fail instead of you never know the answer
fight for what we want
is our right to know the answer
to know the truth
to make things clear
your statements are clear enough
and i know you are not the one im looking for
i can't promise what's gonna happen in future
at least i know it is within short period of time

i got the answer
i never regret and i never will
it helps me to found the answer in me
this might be the right junction
i've threw out what i refuse to admit in the past
i've the courage to tell what's in me all this while
i could share it with others
nothing to shame about when you tell the truth
not everyone have the guts to express themselves
be proud if you can do it
do appreciate if you have someone to share with
a lock which is deep inside me is now unlock
is like a volcano which brew out
although the party who involve do not know the truth
at least there are someone who i can share with
some feeling which is hard to describe in words
but it's no longer a sad one
memories are always the best
it's our experiences
lessons which give us motivation
which helps to push us go further
is sad that if people who has no memory
although is a bad one or sad one
i would rather to have it
because it is how we grow up
and teach us to appreciate the happiness we had

shopping day *-*

i think its been 2 months i did not buy any new clothes
so wanted to do shopping so badly recently
suppose to do it last saturday but it was a rainy day
so went out again today
spent at least 2 to 3 hours walking but get nothing
erm,..ok la...a scalf and a hair band
but i decided to get back to the shop
where i saw a lot of jackets
which is so my style....lol
so finally manage to get myself a coat and 2 t-shirts
with some discount from the cantonese speaking uncle
hehe,...seems like mood is coming
keep on walking,...went to MNG, Zara and Esprit
manage to get a winter coat from Zara Kids....lol
is very cheap which you couldn't find from adult department
a dress for my cousin's wedding and 2 tees on sales
woo-hoo...i am satisfy now....=)
girls will never satisfy la by right
but i am satisfy for today....lol
might wanna get something else from H&M
when im going to Zurich next week
wish to have UK flight
so that i can go Primark
to get more cheap stuffs...hehe
i know how to control not to over budget
don't worry ya,....;p

真相=假像

這個世界上,

真相只有一個,

可是在不同人眼中,

卻會看出不同的是非曲直

這是為什麼呢？

其實,道理很簡單,

因為每個人看待事物,

都不可能站在絕對客觀公正的立場上,

而是或多或少地戴上有色眼鏡,

用自己的經驗、好惡和道德標準來進行評判,

結果就是——我們看到了假像。

21st key

yea,...i bought myself a key

which most parents will get them one when they are 21 year old

and i'm the one who bought it for myself

which i think is more meaningful for me

this prove that i've grown up

where i can support my own financial

as well as my parents or my family's one

so i don't think i need to get it from my parents

i'm pretty sure both of my sisters never get one

so i will not ask one from them too

it might be my mum's present when im 22

it's not that "present"

is something more like a gift which i will let her keep for me

which represent herself to buy myself a present

i believe this sounds great than if i get one from her

am i right??

actually i have spot them earlier

is a very simple design

but i think this is good enough as long as i like it

my birthday is in december

but i already got it now....lol

1 more month to go

can't wait to wear it on anymore =P

K time ~ wu-hoo

finally got a partner to K with in SG
we really on sia
came back from Milan on tuesday
meet up to have Sarawak laksa and kolo mee
then one rest day at home
didn't really rest for me
went out for drinks which is a simple farewell for Rudi
today came out for K and drinks
and we both have to operate an early morning flight tomorrow
siao ar!!....tiring yet enjoying...hehe
really hard to get accompany for K nowadays
specially in SG
cannot be happy hour myself right??

anyway went to NTUC to buy some food stuff for my dinner
boil barley water and pan fried pratta
lol....gonna share with housemate
finally did something for them...hehe
and meeting Steph on board tomorrow
so will bring her some as well
hehe....wish i could sleep earlier tonight
gotta wake up at 4am le....sienz.........
wish me luck for tomorrow flight
which i will not meet "someone" on board sia
see ya!

all the best ~Rudi

knowing that one of my friend is leaving SIA

it was a short notice given

was surprise that someone is leaving so soon

we suppose to have chance for flying together

once was disrupted

the other one gonna be next month after he is leaving

thanks God that we manage to meet before leaving
sadness when a friend is leaving again

is already so few friends in SG

hate you Rudi....lol

anyway will still wish you all the best

and wish to see you someday in future

God bless!!

is there anything that i can do??

is the end of october
november is coming and follow by december
knowing that my girls are planning to have a 21st birthday party for all
im stuck...i wish i could be there
is gonna be a great gathering for all of us after all
its been a very long time we miss all our gathering
Eternally......since our secondary school
i appreciate any gathering that we could have
ever since im alone in SG
because i would not have a chance to hang out with a big group anymore
specially in SG because all of us are now seperated
AUS, UK, SG, MAS- Ipoh, KL, PJ, Nilai....
everyone of us are doing our own job
we don't even have much time to spent together
i really pray hard that i could have a 2 days off to attend the party
help me please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

depression period

it wasn't a good feeling after doing something badly
at least it is bad to me
and it may affect any other people who i loves
some old stupid f**king attitude has appeared
ya...that's me but it is a old me i would say
i don't have such feeling such thinking don't know since when
at least i have not seen it for quite a long period
it doesn't judge by myself but also people around me
but it appeared recently without any acknowledgement
this is killing me
and it happens to happen on someone who i care most
which i have no1 to share with
thanks god i have found someone who understand my situation most
we talk about it
i think when you care about someone most
but you may easily hurt them most

i found i may have take things for granted when people treat me well
that is the reason why i said i should not have deserve anything
because it might makes me become worst than ever
i thought i have changed
and the one who i shared with have thought so
but seems like this things happen in between my blind spot
which i couldn't even see it clearly that things is really happening
until it is so bad which makes me so angry about myself
i really hate myself for being someone like that

ya,...someone have said that this is all i see in my world
it sounds like he predicts something and it is happening now
it isn't all but at least he is right that i really care about this stuff
i think i have been relying on my friend too much
specially my very best friend
someone who is more than a best friend *not lesbian ya*
which we couldn't find a word to represent it yet
since the day i am away
when i have nobody to talk to when nobody listen to me
and she is the only one who can understand what am i trying to say
what is really going on in my new life
my miserable and depression period
it seems fine all the while until the time which i didn't notice
my reaction that i'm being so selfish
that i only think about my own feeling
where i have neglected about hers

i always expect people who know me who understand me
know who i really was
which makes me really take thing for granted seriously
because they never ever angry when im over react
and they have been accompany me until where i am today
although all of us came from different background
but this is the way which bring us to be how we were today
because we appreciate things that we learn from each other
we share the experiences we had from different places and background
i should have treat them much better than what am i doing
i really wish that this is the alarm
which can wake me up ever
i really wish to tell you all i love you guys equally
i do care that's the reason why i need to wake up now
i should not have let the devil me to take control
i can be much better as someone does remind me of
thanks for listening and remind me that i am the good one
i wish i will return with the better me
is anyone supporting me out there??
do let me know
your supportive is the power which can push me over this barrier
i do appreciate that..........very much
i believe this is just something that i need to get over with
i'm sure you all out there are always there waiting for me
nothing can change our relationship
because we believe so

a sign on me

something that i wanted to do for so long

finally got the chance to do it

im not really well prepared

i was there with a little of fear but excited

first thing you must have an idea what you want to do

tell the tattoo artist and they will draw it out for you

or you may bring your own design

i have brought my idea my design in my mind

and i just need to tell the tattoo artist my design so he can draw it out for me

with my own little touch up here and there

and here we go....this is my tattoo

firstlly he so called "printed" it on the position where i wanted to tattoo

make sure it is straight and nice in position

and the works start with doing the outline of it

you may see a lot of reddish on my skin

the tattoo artist told me that's because of my skin sensitivity

followed by doing some shadows with the colours that i wanted

the last step is to touch up all the colours

and thats the end of a tattoo

it's a little painful after it's done

because of the position that i choose to do is somewhere with the bone

it only takes 1 and half hour to finish the whole thing

and yet i have got a sign on me now

a naked girl with the butterfly wings

people who knows me will know what it means to me

something which can represent myself

about my stories,....my experiences,..........

people who saw it said it looks sad

but in fact that's just stories inside me,....

added a wings with blue in the end which shows more about my personality

maybe i would say that's what people see from me at the very first impression

blue = cold and cool

yet the wing shows the freedom that i have

it means a lot to me

and thanks to mun yee who helps me to portray what i have been thinking

or else i can't really see what i have portray in my mind

i really like it because i now can see a ME on me....lol

unforgettable trip ~ Malacca

08 oct 2009 -- a day which i have been waited for so long
a day which we have plan to gather and go Malacca
we woke up at 8am in the morning
Hui Kuan, Wan Pheng and me depart from MU
heading to Kajang to fetch my dear Mun Yee
follow by Seremban fetching darling Danielle
and drive down to Malacca to meet up with Justina babe

first place we went to eat the chicken rice ball
because we are all feeling hungry after a driving journey
park our car walking down by the river

first time eating chicken rice ball
they told me that 5 balls equal to 1 plate of rice
but we ordered 3 plates which is 15 balls to share
because we know that we are going to have more foods later on
and we force the skinniest 2 wich is Hui Kuan and Wan Pheng to have 4 balls each
coz they have been complaining being so skinny all the time
which makes us so mad because we are those who complain to be too fat....lol
thanks to Justina who paid for the food SECRETLY!!....
anyway i love it because.....i'm a chicken rice fans...................hehe

have some walk after 'makan' because we need to digest our food as fast as we can
so that we can have other nice food...hehe...such a big eater
but i think it should be that way when you go for a trip??
isn't it??...so we are not wrong....okay??
okay okay...back to topic....
walking down at Junker Walk
me and Mun Yee are the first one who spend money
we bought ourselves a hat which cost only RM15 for two
wow!!.....we like it though it is cheap stuff
because we always call ourselves 'cheap jing'
i admit, we admit and we still enjoy doing it.....lol
we haven even walk for 30minutes i think
Justina babe asking whether we wanna try the ice kacang??
why not??....we are here to eat neh!!....lol
okay...go in to this ice kacang shop which i don't know the name of it
just go in sit down and waiting to eat...thats all i know....hahahah

after finish the ice
we decided to continue shopping at night
so we walk back to the Christ Church Melaka
and walk to the St. Paul Church
where we spend most of our time there
just to take a lot of pictures.......hehe

we bought some Malacca key chain in front of 'Ah Paul'
with the name of threesome crazy lesbian partners
with the date of the day and of coz the painting by the seller

look at this photo
don't be too serious about it
it just an idea appeared in my mind when i wanted to edit and combine them together
how we come out with that name??
because of some stupid funny topic which appear in our mind at the end of the day
where we have a ride on a small track at Jeti
and we were joking to say we are the contestant of beauty pageant
Justina-nana, Mun Yee-gigi, Danielle-elel, me-gaga, Hui Kuan-unun, Wan Pheng-wawa
and the driver call gogo......hahahahhahaha


its been a long time where the 3 of us have not been gather together
thinking back to we have dinner and study group together in collage
which we have been graduate in June of 2008
OMG!!...its been 1 year and 4 months??....
hey gals....you know i miss you all......

suppose to eat nyonya food by now but the restaurant will only be open at 5pm
so we went to "Tan Kim Hock" to buy some local snacks
i think i should have use we buy A LOT
1 trolley with 2 baskets

we just grap whatever we saw and we feel like eating
and our friend leh....neh....that Danielle leh....

who spend most here....like never for years like that lo....
don't know she buy so many for what....
like all items free like that lo.....lol......okay ignore her...
anyway we spend some money here....
don't wanna tell you the amount because i don't wish to frighten you guys

we went to the mall after shopping for snacks
we went to this Pahlawan Mall...
walk walk walk....suddenly this 2 silly girl so hyper there
after checking with them only realise they thought of this layer cake shop

so we went to have our tea break there
OMG!! this is so super delicious i tell you
you can really eat this layer by layer lo...........
its so fun...can play while eating.....lol
ok la....show you how to eat la....scroll down la......

like this lo.....understand??
if cannot understand go there to experience yourself la...
if still don't know then call Justina....okay??
we sitted down there enjoying the cake
in the mean time is our girls gossiping time
topic started with Danielle playing with my ears

and telling me that im a stuburn girl
and we were there sharing our stories about our relationship with our parents and siblings

times up....
time to eat what we suppose to eat
know the answer??....yes...so clever....is nyonya food la...
Justina is the one who suppose to order the food
but she can't really remember the name of the food
so end up the waitress is the one who recomment us all the dishes
anyway...all are nice except for the dessert which i didn't post up...hehe
start from the top left ya...

chilli fish, white rice, sour duck soup, dunno what chicken, nyonya mix veg and otak

we don't wish to waste any food so every 2 of us share to finish 1 dish
and im not so sure what Hui Kuan is trying to do
we were laughin there and she trying to explain to us
she said she is checking whether anymore meat hidden under the fish
ya....she is always that cute which can make us laugh

went to jeti after dinner
a very nice place to celebrate birthday or any other party i think
its surround by the sea so it is a very comfortable place to 'yum cha' with friends
time to gossip again....

and we don't talk about family anymore
we were discussing about guys

how bad are those guys that we have ever met
and the 5 of us are actually single and available
where the 4 of us were so sick about guys
but we are those very tough girls i would say
yes...i love them.....very much....
they are all the girls which makes me realise i actually someone lucky in the world
because of them i know i am somebody
because of them i know somebody cares about me
because of them i have gone through my very tough time in collage
because of them i realise we actually need to lose something when we gain something
and i will never say regret for lossing somthing anymore
because they are all my 'gain'.....
after finish our drinks
we leave to Junker Walk to shop

again we buy stuffs like shop for free
OMG!!...i don't wish to calculate how much i have spend
but i am happy to spend it all
because i get to buy a lot of sourveniors
and i would say i am happy to spend money with my love one

time flies....is time to leave
and we do not manage to eat satay celuk because of the timing
its too bad but still we did spent our time wisely and happily
fetch Justina back to her house and she guide us to the highway
my first goodbye of the day
ya...i am sad but still i did not cry anymore
because i am looking forward to our next meet
maybe thinking that way will make myself happier
yes...i think it works....im gonna miss you Justina....
heading to Seremban where Danielle going to leave soon

sigh....everyone seems sad instead on tire
giving a very big hug to Danielle before she leave
and follow by Mun Yee
met her families before leaving her house
my second home....should call them my second parents
who treated me like their daughter
and end up left the three of us who are going back to MU
and time to say goodbye to all
it was a very very great day for me
i believe we all do
its been a non-stop laughing day
which suppose to be very tire
but i love doing that which brighten my day so much
once me and Mun Yee are together we will never stop laughing
so of coz we did not stop laughing at all when we have 6 of us

its more fun when the more people we have together
so we decided try to have a short trip once in a month or 2
gals,...i really looking forward to our next trip
let'splan for it ya....i miss u all soooooooooooooooooo super much.....
love you all..........muakzzzzzzz......................

xoxo
yvonne~gaga

a sudden plan

it was a sudden plan which decided by cindy
it happens after we had dim sum breakfast with my mum...lol
and you know what??...
she has been driving me around for so many times before i got my license and my car
and now is my turn to drive her to penang
we have been saying to do things like this since secondary school
finally it has happen
and what we actually wanted to do is just to eat laksa
what??
drive 1 and half hour all the way from ipoh to penang
because of laksa??
yes..it is....but of coz we still wanna go to the beach..hehe

this is the laksa we had mention earlier

this is the only place we remember we had nice laksa before

actually i do not know the way in penang

but still we happen to came all the way for this laksa

yes,...with a little of her memory and mine

and then we were there

after having our laksa
must take a walk to the "Ji Le Si"
but we didn't walk all the way up
because we are lazy and the weather is too hot
which make us felt so lazy to walk up
but still must visit our friends -- turtle
the big family...they are so many of them
which you could not count i guess

after that we drive down to the town to get the well known biscuit from penang
and drive up to batu feringgi where all the beach are
chose a cafe to settle down
enjoy the sea breeze, the nature, the sun and our drinks
it has been a comfortable evening

we end up went to gurney plaza to have a short walk
followed by having dinner at gurney drive
where you can find all the local food
it was a great day which is full of things we wanna do
all the way drive back to ipoh
the place where we were born
but still we can be lost
because of the stupid change over of the highway
and a stupid wrong turn spent me another 30 minutes to reach home
gosh!! so embarrasing.....
i can understand that we lost our way in penang due to our infamiliarity
but still we can be lost in ipoh where i have live for 20 years
sigh....is our secret...do not tell anyone please..................!!
anyway i have posted out here.....lol