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Friday, April 23, 2010

如果 分手

从一开始的互不熟悉,到如今的彼此了解;

从一开始浅薄的想念,到如今深深的眷恋;
从最初很在意在你面前的形象,到现在的毫无顾忌;
从当初的不知道该怎么爱你,到现在不知道该如何分离。
一路走来,经历了很多,我们也都付出了很多。

如果.....
如果我们真的分手,
你会怎样?
如果我们分手了,
我一定会感到很寂寞无助,
耍性子闹脾气的时候会感到闷得慌,
电话短信都不知道该发给谁。

如果我们分手了,
我一定会恨自己的自以为是,
原本总以为,
不管我们交错多少次,
总可以再找到时间地点,
重新牵起彼此的手,
可却只是自己的一厢情愿罢了。

如果我们分手了,
在一起那些痛苦的记忆会无限缩小甚至蒸发,
而幸福的回忆却只会日益膨胀,
到最后甚至忘记为什么分手,
仅仅只是想你,想你,想你。

如果我们分手了,
就算删掉你的手机号码,
我一定还是能倒背如流,
在夜深人静的时候红着眼眶,
慢慢按下那些键,
却始终找不到理由拨出去,
即使你淡出我的生命,
却仍然占据我的记忆。

如果我们分手了,
我会把你送给我的东西,
写给我的文字,
统统藏起来,
然后在夜深人静的时候不断拿出又放好,
想看又不敢再碰触。

如果我们分手了,
我一定还是不会删掉那些照片,
摘掉那根红绳,
因为曾经的每一次争吵都让它们来来去去,
可是这一次如果我删了,
我delete了,
它们就不再回来了。

如果我们分手了,
我不想再看见你,
因为我害怕那时的你在我的眼前,
我还是想牵牵你,
抱抱你,亲亲你,
但是我已经没有资格了。

如果我们分手了,
我还是想你和你做朋友,
这样在我想你的时候,
我可以想着还能找你,
虽然我也许并不会这么做。

如果我们分手了,
我一定会害怕出门,
因为无论到哪里,
都有我们的回忆,
背着我牵着我到处乱逛的你,
看着我流泪会陪我一起伤心的你,
陪着我发疯陪着我快乐的你,
几乎把所有的零花钱都花在我身上的你,
因为给我准备了惊喜而自己开心半天的你,
在凛冽的寒风又或者飘泊的雨中还是会等我的你,
因为我乱玩,乱吃东西,胡作非为而大发雷霆的你,
每一次都被我搞的崩溃却依旧每一次都原谅我包容我来找我的你。

遍地留下了自己的痕迹,
最后却跑掉的你。
如果,

如果,
如果我们真的分手,
我一定不想的。

请记得,
如果我们分手了,
我还是等你的电话,
回你的短信,
在你需要我或是想见我的时候出现,
你是我的独家记忆,

一直在心底。

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

平行线

一个操场,六个跑道
一个道路,两条平行线

你 走你那幸福快乐的路
我 有我享受独立的生活

我们 拥有 各自的幸福 各自的快乐
我们 都在 各自的跑道 各自的平行线上

偶尔相见 偶尔交谈
但是 我们就像两条平行线
一个靠左 一个靠右
永远都不可能 化变成一个交叉点
就像那拍不响的 一个手掌
也像那阴与阳 永远都无法相吸
但却无法没有彼此的存在

因为那道路 需要两个来回的方向
因为每个人 需要两双手互相扶持
因为阴与阳 拥有各自的力量相助

一个名词 已不足以取代 我们之间的关系
一个名词 已不足以表达 我们之间的联系

伤痕虽无法被删除 疑问虽无法被解除
但是那曾经存在的疙瘩 已被我们的努力铲除掉了
虽然偶尔思念 虽然偶尔回忆
但是却认清了事实 不再渴望
只待光阴的飞逝 把它带到云霄以外
让那空气把它吞没 还我那小鸟般的自由
好让我毫无牵挂的搬迁 飞出那结了冰的冬天
呼唤着那春天的来临 牵引着新的一道彩虹

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

visit Malacca~~

happen to have a 3 days off after my Moscow/Houston
decided to visit one of my girl friend in Malacca
since we have not meet for quite sometimes
and we actually planned to stay over someday
although there is only me who can make it
but is good enough for just the two of us to spend time together
i am no longer a miss sunshine
because i brought rain to Malacca for this weekend
which we cant go anywhere
hmm,.....but we manage to come to this nice place
which i don't know what's the name
must ask Justina to reply me the name of it,.....lol
the food isn't excellent but i think is a nice place to have dinner
or just even for a chill out section with friends

not only the first day was raining
the same goes to the following days
which we actually wanted to go Jonker Walk
end up we just had layer cheese cake and coffee for tea break
stay home all the while and chit chatting with auntie
although this trip isn't goes smooth like what i have thought
but i do enjoy the time that i have spend with Justina's family
just take it a relax trip after a long haul flight
is always great to have all girls talk in an air-con room
and this is what i love to see from a family
where the childs and the parents can get along with
they are very close to one another
they can talk about everything and anything
which hardly happen to me with my parents

~barbeque time~
where they use to do it once in a while
enjoy it after all grills are done
and have some wine together with the grill
such an enjoying weekend i had
which i will not have it in SG
very soon that this is the last nite i have in Malacca
girls spend time sharing our stories before we go to bed
there is always a goodbye at the end of the day
i get back to where i belongs to
and they have to start another working day
all we can do is just to wait for the next meet up
i had a great time with all of you
miss auntie,both sisters and of coz my bestties Justina
all the advices and stories that we have shared
will arrange another visit as soon as possible.......take care ^.^