one day

i need a little getaway

by myself

for a short one

to somewhere nobody knows me

to somewhere without telling anybody

needed a rest so much

but what would i do when im alone

where can i go when im alone

yet im so afraid to be alone

ain't i??

but why would i needed a get away by myself??

i have no f**cking idea

how i wish i could be selfish

i wanted to disappear 

how i wish i never being created

how i wish i am brave enough to leave

because i know nobody cares

because i know i ain't aimportant

because i know nobody would wonder

if i could ever disappear

but what would i do??

and my only hope was my mum

i love her

and i never want her to worried

and yet i have been created

so this is my life although nobody cares

i need to be around wherever my mum does

there could be a day

where i would leave

without telling anybody

without knowing where would i go

i need to set my soul free forever

it was too tight inside

which i couldn't hold it anymore

i need to release

how would i??

because my life has no choice

not say someone force me to be

but at least i know

i needed to be

because i was given by this way

so i know i have the responsibility to do so

and i will do so til the end of it

i will never ever say regret

because this is my life

where i work hard for it

i choose to do it by myself

no matter who i am

no matter what i do

because i do it with a clear conscience

i know im doing it right

i choose to do it for the one i love

dear my only supporter in my life

my dearest mum 

~~**heart**~~

ps: tell myself to be happy because i want you to be happy