what a day

is another year of Christmas

is a day most people will celebrate

at least to enjoy this festive day

enjoy the holidays

while i am not

im hiding under my blanket

felt the loneliness in me

just so afraid to step out from my door

i guess im afraid to smile on my face

while im not happy in my heart

i guess im afraid to feel the loneliness

while seeing how happy are the others

i never know i would be afraid of that ever

but it happens to me today

on the day where everybody celebrating out there

busy about the gathering with their love ones

im away from home

i don't have a love ones

my friends are all busy partying

you might say i could join the group

ya,...why not??

but not for today

i don't like the bitter feeling in me

i don't like to feel the loneliness

if there is a date

i want it to be a full attention on me

instead of being share with others

just because i want to be selfish for a day

where i like to feel the importance of being me

i have been doing my part to everyone all these while

can i own it for a day??

just a day please??

i hate this feeling

i hate to see myself being lousy

i never know i would be afraid of loneliness ever

i never know i would tears for being lonely

i have no answer to spell this

i have no idea what is wrong with me

i shouldn't have afraid of loneliness

i have been cool about it all these while

am i??

maybe GOD is trying to tell me

is time for me to pick up some happiness in life

my happiness are on YOU

i never ever ask for it

why would i??

it doesn't belongs to me

i shouldn't have ask for any

i believe in my faith

as go with the flow

have a great holidays to all out there

~Merry Christmas loves