just them....

it's been a while i never blow out the wind in my stomach

my friend help to burst it out today

but it doesnt help anymore

it use to be very release after doing so

i have no idea who are the correct person who could do so anymore

SHE use to be one

but im trying to convince myself saying that she has her loves one now

she belongs to him and she doesn't need me anymore

his support gonna be the most effective to her in future

all she need in future is him

my mission is done and gonna be over very soon

my friend remind me saying that SHE is like a sister to me

yes,...we use to be.....to share to support like family

i said this because our friendship as good as lesbian partner

as good as family....as good as people around us will misunderstand us

we wouldn't care because we know we are not

and we don't think if we need explaination to anybody

even since i left and work in SG

she is the only friend i would call to help throw my troubles in mind

instead of telling her SHE doesn't need my support

in a way im trying to tell myself SHE couldn't support me much in future

SHE gonna be busy with her work, her life, her family in future....

SHE got lots more troubles to come in mind

instead of all my small little shitz

but i do appreciate SHE does help a lot in the past and even now

just sad to know im not the only person who understand her most

SHE mention someone who betrayed her

use to be a person who would say " finally i found you"

im not the one,... neither we need that

we know by heart how important we are to one another

at least i know im the person who she trust most

that's good enough as i thought

there is a HE who promise to look after me if i have any problems

and i told him promises shouldn't be given easily

specially for our case....

people were saying ex-couple couldn't be friend

but we prove that this is not a truth

we are best friend who share who discuss who help and support

someone saying HE is nice to me because HE felt guilty for hurting me once

we know better than anyone else

because we cherish friends who really care

maybe GOD arrange us and fated us to be friend instead

at least it goes further and stable without any "injuries"

because we are the person who being trust

honestly i use to love him very much

although HE might not the one

but at least i know im a special friend to him

someone HE trust and might think to share in the first place

at least i can throw my temper when i feel sad

because HE couldn't fight back....lol

we LOVE and CARE as FRIEND for LIFE

isn't it best when you know there is someone special in your life

to be with you walking next to your path
im even more lucky because i have TWO
for sure there are more to come
i know who are YOU
it might just be my side of thinking
i might be the only one trying to clap
but at least they still offer to clap now 

because no one knows the future