we do have questions

if we ever have to run for success

how far could the distance be

if we ever have to fight for our rights

how much war could there be

if we ever have to fall to grow

how much scar could that be

if we ever have to carry responsibilities

how firm could the shoulder be

if we ever have to hold the friendship

how hard could it be

if we ever have to chase after happiness

how fast could the speed be

if we ever have to tie up a relationship

how strong could a knot be

if we ever have to turn back

how the earth could be

if we ever have to doubt our own

how fair could the GOD be

if we ever have to praise everyone

how peace could the world be

if we ever have no doubts no questions

how happy could we all be

cheers ^.^

for life

 ever since the day we met

since the day get to know each other

ever since we keep in touch

since we hang out one after another

we talk we share

we play we laugh

every moment we spent together

just to let you know

if you say i am your friend

i will say you are my buddy for life

if you say i am your buddy

i will say i will irritate you for life

if you say you ever understand me

i will say i know you by heart

if you say you care about me

i will say i worried about you

if you say you will grab me when i fall

i will say i will hold you every single moment

if you say you like me

i will say i always think of you

if you say you miss me

i will say nothing but smile because i miss you even more

if you say you love me

i will say i can't live without you

do believe me

i might not like to bring it out in words

but i will always think of it by heart

i know and i cherish 

things that you have ever done for me

i will always pay you double the way you pay me

i never know friends in different stages

i will only pick up friends from different stages

no matter who we are

because we will walk along til the end

friends we know

people we cherish

we need not speak in words

we show it by actions

we know it by heart

this is a long term relationship we looking for

here we are

there we go

not to compare how much time we have spent

but how much effort we have pay

the relationship we pay for life

the barrier

our thinking really make our day differently

if you are having good mood day ahead

you will realize nothing could spoil your day

if you feel depress beginning of the day

neither a compliments make your day

people do have emotions

just to see how we handle it 

or how we want to bring it to our days

it may not just gonna affect our day

but it will also affect people around us

i admit that i'm not a person who can handle my emo well

i should say i can not handle it at all

i can be so emo most of the time

i think one of the main reason 

is because i am very stuborn

i don't really listen to others' advice

i keep thinking no one could understand me 

neither anyone cares

i feel bad that i have this thought

while so many people worried

will that be i'm so afraid of believe in anyone

i guess i am

will that be the barrier in me is too high??

which hardly allow people touches my heart

how could i cut down the barrier in me

since we couldn't forget about our memories

maybe i should have build it firm instead of high

so that it could be stride over easier

because i believe i have a soft heart too

just to see if i willing to let go

or to open it wider for the others

give me some times i guess

until the day i would let go everything in mind

or the day someone touches my heart

emo-ing

the feeling of heart got stuck

feel the difficulties in breathing

got the feeling of take a walk

have the feeling of talking to someone

but you just not doing anything at all

nothing could help

just got stuck by something

since the night before

which was my sleepless night

don't ask me why

i have no idea at all

might got a hint to the answer

but i refuse to know

i just don't want things to happen again

i don't want to get disappointed anymore

just feel emo

while i needed to talk

and there is no one to reply me in sms

neither on the msn

there are so many names appear on the line

there are so many contacts in the phone

where you realize there isn't anyone you can talk to

i might just need something to distract me

out off this stupid feeling

the feeling that killing me

the feeling that burning my heart

i hate this feeling

the feeling of waiting or expecting

yet it was so empty in there

where no one can fill it up

*yes, i was the one ruin everything*

my imaginary dreamland

i doubt myself because you doubt

i expect myself because you expect

i feel the joy because of your overjoy

i feel disappointed because you are disappointed

i eat because you love to eat

i said im fat because you are way so far from fat

i never be slim because you are way too slim

i get emo because you have emo

i get upset because you do upset

i laugh because you always laugh

i care because you said you care

i work really hard because you ask me to work hard

i have no confidence because you lose confidence on me

i will give up because you choose to give up between us

i equal everyone because you choose to equal me with others

i do remember because you never remember

i get annoy because you are annoying

i buy clothes because your wardrobe has all kind of clothes

i dress up because you always dress up

i make up because you never live without make up

i save money because you need not worried about money

i love everyone because you get loved easily

i study because you score without study

i drive because you always lazy to drive

i travel to learn because you never need to learn for knowledge

i keep you accompany because you can't do anything without accompany

isn't that i am living on the other's behalf

not about love

not about relationship

but just a simple friendship

friendship towards friends that i care

their words make the difference

the difference of my emotionals

the difference of my thinking

i did not get myself improve although i care

is that because i overlook myself

to observe peoples around 

follow their requirements

do whatever they do

i always try to be in the group wherever i go

i work hard to catch the steps after everyone

never want to be the best

i can't imagine how much more i have done

isn't this just like a small kids

working hard to catch the attentions of their parents

nevertheless it never works

there i realize i never live in my own life

im just living in the imaginary dreamland

where nobody exist nobody cares

magic man??

 

was watching this movie online

which talking about a girl (a writter)

who working in the business field

just to search and date a man in suits

which is mainly for her article

at the same time

she is browsing around for her magic man

a magic man = a dream man

comparing a man after another

see how many points they score

she date a man who fulfill the requirements most

but he isn't the man in suits

broke up after she found him telling lies

she fake a character for her article

who is actually a man works in her office too

she has finish the article and got fired by the boss

after he found out that she is a writter

she got the chance to write for the cover page story

her senior reminds her of the man that she met

and finally she realize she has found him actually

someone she never thought of

he doesn't even score any of her requirements

they seeing each other

and work together everyday

yes,...the boss

this is how we never expect in life

while we working so hard over something

searching for the right person

but we didn't realize they are someone stay by our side all time

which we will forget

sometimes people really take things for granted

never appreciate what is around them

nor things that given to them

open your eyes and look around

did you miss out anything in your life??

you will never know 

don't bring regrets to your life
we have requirements for things we do
but usually it comes out with something the other way
never say it will not happen
everything can happen in life
so please appreciate whatever falls to you
it could be your destiny
every junctions come out with different ways
any of them could be a success to you
only those who do not appreciate
give up half way
will lose in their life
so believe in your instinct
so that any way you choose will lead you to success



** there is no right or wrong in love
go for it if you believe it **

perfect sunday

usually i would rather to stay home if i get a weekend off

because it is very pack anywhere in town

which really can cause you headache seeing the crowd

met Emily and Eirene for lunch today

but it is too bad that Eirene is operating tonight

which she couldn't join us for shopping in town

went Ion in orchard

spent the whole afternoon over there

found an interesting shop

which sell shoes and accessories

call The Little Things She Needs

bought myself 1 pair of shoe

a very cool legging

a skinny jeans

and some accessories for mummy

followed by a seafood dinner

with Emily's friends

guess what??

is my first time having seafood in SG
which they said this is famous in SG

Jumbo Seafood at East Coast Park

veg with eggs and gravy

main dish of the day

chilli crab with bun

had dinner over the joy

met 2 new friends today

we think so hard to plan what to do next

and actually nothing we have done after all

due to a rainy night

which we can't take a walk around in the park

neither movie or anything else

because two of them are doing a morning flight next

so walk a little in Isetan Tampines

and i spent an amount within 30minutes time

Laneige X'mas promotion set

 

Protection for day & night set

Water Bank essence and cream set

satisfying day!!

the day hasn't end yet

went Frolick for Yogurt

it melted so fast 

while we were so busy taking photos

using an apps of iPhone -- Lomo

it's been a while which i have spend my weekend in SG

specially for the whole day in town

had lots of fun today

and looking forward to another catch up

which should be a cycling section

with some others yummy food of SG

circles in our heart

there are a lot of people have the same experience as us in life

we can call them a friend when we have similar topics

the longer time we spend

the more experiences we share

we can call them a better friend

but we don't call everybody a best buddy in life

i ever encouter there are people who call everyone best buddy

and actually told me im the most important friend

so what exactly is it??

if we met so many peoples everyday

and you tell everyone they understand you most

so who is the exact important person to you

and how is it when someone you believe in betray you someday

you might choose to forgive them

but do you actually still believe in them??

we should learn to differentiate different groups of people in our life

i believe we all have our own circles in our heart

which meant for different people

who are a friend, family, even enermy to us

i have learn this from a friend

which we should not call everyone your best friend

although you think you are very close to them

because of too many similar topics, experiences

or maybe similar thinking

people who receive it will really expect something from you

because they will believe this statement when you tell them

what if when they realise you actually calling everyone a best friend??

and saying someone else simply understand you

someone simply read your thoughts and stuff

it hurts,.....it really do

don't ever believe someone's promises

people do change

you will never know what exactly is it in a person's mind

there are people that we can trust

we choose them to be

but not because of what they have told you

not because of they told you how important you are

they can choose you to be a person they believe in

but it doesn't mean you have to give them the same treatment

because we judge them by ourselves

whether to fit them into which circle in our heart

believe someone might cause yourself to get hurt in the end

think twice when you judge a person

if you think you are changing by age

they are the same like us

learn the way to protect yourself

stay strong with your thoughts

stay strong with your own statements

the best person we can believe in is our own

if you choose not to protect yourself no one will do

牺牲也可以快乐

爱情可以被归类成很多组

有的人可以拥有

有的人可以幸福

但最伟大的也许是牺牲

拥有一个不爱自己的人在身边

双方也未必快乐

也未必是幸福

在戏剧里往往付出最多的人得不到爱情不是吗

这就是我想说的伟大的爱情

心里是痛的

但是却不放弃支持着他爱的人

总是在一旁默默的帮助对方

就算是付出一切也无所谓

因为对方可以得到幸福

真正的快乐才是他的幸福

坚持没有错

但是强迫得来的感情

不但不会幸福

也许更会带来伤痛

不要为了得不到的爱情执著

到最后只会是两败俱伤而已

待在对方的身边

当他的守护者

因为他的快乐而快乐

也许还要幸福

至少你们可以是永远的朋友

甚至可以像家人一样

互相扶持

互相关心

分享着生活里的点点滴滴

忆起从前

有的人说中学生活最无知快乐

有的人说学院生活很开心自由

也许都是个快乐的回忆

最近想起18岁的我

是多么不堪

有人说当你爬得越快

就会掉得越快

以为认识了一般无所不谈的好友

却是一场恶梦

以为遇到了美丽的王子

却是一场美丽的梦

一切来得很快

但去得更快

对18岁生日抱着种种美丽的期待

却是一道又一道

无法痊愈的伤痕

是上辈子犯下的错

还是这辈子必换的罪

曾经那么的无知

从小就那么认为朋友多么可靠

其实现实生活里并不如此

其实身边的人是如此现实

当你一无所有的时候

他们只会在一旁观看

甚至有的撒多一把盐

够了。。一切都够了

无论是小学生的无知

中学生的幼稚

还是学院生的超级幼稚

因为家境不如他们一般被看扁也就算了

到底真心哪里出错

难道真心不如一时的脾气值钱吗？？

虽然口不说但不代表心不知

我不是白痴

我心里懂的很

穷人无罪

没自信无罪

要是现实生活里

能够出现愿意付出真心的人

陪伴那黑洞里爬起的人

耐心帮助愿意改过的人

也许今天的我可以是一个有自信的人

也许今天的我为你付出的真心更多

即使你不稀罕

但是我就是那从来的笨蛋

总是厚着脸皮

在你们声旁苦苦哀求被你们接纳的我

但生活就是这样啊！！

生活比较好了

人们对你当然比较友善了

但我了得这只是生活上必有的应酬

我只会让你懂得

我会对于如何对待我的人

你付出30我还你60

你插我一刀我会还你十刀

因为我了得

往往只有付出真心的人才会得到伤痛

既然我的真心无价

何必换来痛苦

曾经的好我不会忘

曾经的恶梦更是心里的刺

但毕竟这是曾经

我不会因此而让自己过不去

好的怀的都已是过去

生活依然要过

我不会因为曾经的无知

让自己犯罪

如果你可以凭着良心对待

我依然不会抗拒

因为我相信成长也相信改变

我只想过的更简单一些而已