never a lonely x'mas

 

Merry Christmas to all!!

for those who are alone tonight

don't ever think that you are lonely

you have to believe that 

there are someone missing you & loving you

it could be your family (definitely)

it could be your friends 

whoever they are

you will never be forgotten

and you are not alone!!

i don't feel upset for being alone today

for a special occasion

for a happy day

there are always chances of being sad

but never on a day that full of blessing

where wishes drop by from everybody

where by the world is celebrating

there are always reasons to make you smile :)

you never know if someone is falling for your smile

so cheers ^^

to love them

is another year end

where all the festival falls
while we suppose to have some holidays
but i wasn't home for my love ones
in fact i never do
due to my job
where i need to be working specially on holiday seasons
also when i felt sick
mum's call but i couldn't ever speak to her
i felt so sorry
when i know that she is so worried about me all times
is gonna be another new year
how scary is time flying

im always afraid seeing my parents getting older

yet i have done nothing for them

a lot may think that i have given them a lot

but in fact i have only given them support in financial aspect

but never in living aspect

i can never accompany them everyday

but only to visit them once in a while

by seeing them getting older every time i visit home

when will be the time i could be there for them everyday

how could be a better way to express my love to them

im so afraid when times come and i will lose them forever

i can never imagine how i could live without them

i hope i could do something better in life

i hope i could have more times for them

when will be the time i could have a better career

which allow me to be with them most time

to travel with them

to shop with them

to cook for them

just want to be there for them

i don't wish to have any regrets towards them in my life

neither to theirs

i wish to have fulfill their wish as being their daughter

not only to make them proud of what i am doing

but also to be there for them anytime anywhere

i want nothing much in life

but only to see the happiness on their face

isn't it that much i can do for them as being their daughter

i believe they have provide me a good enough living in the past

is time for my returns

is time for me to have do something for them

i hope it's never too late for me to prove them my love

冬至

冬至快乐！！

又一年冬至

没能回家

也没有汤圆

好想念妈妈那香香的汤圆糖水！！

tattoo

discovered a few tattoo designs that i like

can't wait to think of what to do for my 2nd masterpiece

近况

好久没po上一篇长的文章了

我也很久没在享受夜里散步回家了

今天晚上在外走了一圈

晚上散步真的很舒服很轻松

不用顶着大太阳也不用赶时间

跟随着微风漫步

听着那繁忙的交通

很久没感觉那么轻松了

或许最近的烦恼都给一概解决掉了

所以心情特别的愉快

对于他  虽然很愧疚

可是不对他坦白只会对自己残忍

因为他  我大概也困扰了一个月

必须让自己做出最准确的决定

原本以为会是一个两全其美的决定

但是却发现原来要改变真的不容易

因为一段没有爱情的感情无法萌芽

就算他再好再努力再多的付出

对于我根本不能接受

因为我们来自不一样的世界

拥有不一样的梦

向往着不一样的未来

他所策划的一切从来不是我想要拥有的

最重要的决定来自于

我无法得到我想要的空间和自由

他的逼近不但让我感到不舒服

更会让我感觉很压迫很反感

所以很抱歉  你  不会是我的白骑士

这几天生病了 刚开始还不停发烧

后来偏头痛伤风到现在拥有沙哑的声音

因为黑骑士  因为压力  因为工作

最近我无法好好休息

而原本的生日计划也都一一泡汤了

很快的我的生日过了圣诞和跨年又要到了

今年仍然没带上什么愿望

一直以来我想要的只是简单快乐

只要大家健康开心就好了

im sorry

够了

无法再忍受不必要的压迫感

你的逼近让我感觉很厌恶

i'm sorry

you are not my prince charming

很难

很想改变

却发现原来要改变

真的很难

可以不爱了

過去二十世紀中期，美國人類學家George Murdock提及核心家庭定義；

經濟學家大前研一預言未來二十一世紀是一個人的經濟，

看電影有單人套票的选择、便利商店供應單人套餐，

航空公司的機加酒也不用兩人才能成行，

一個人可以買兩房一廳的房子，生活已經進入一個人的模式，

你自己設定家庭的核心意義。

你也想要遇到一個男主角，跟對方組一個核心家庭，

只是好男人只會在偶像劇裡出現，

現實生活中的男人，只是性別是男的人類。

你想被呵護，你不是沒有戀愛的綺想，

可是遇到的男人們，給的都不是呵護，

也遇不到解救，你的一個人，

沒有男人，一樣過的可以， 

幸福已不專屬於兩個人的世界，

一個人也可以享受幸福。

女性主義帶來的不只是內衣外穿和瑪丹娜的迪斯可舞曲，

你開始懂得宣洩情感、你懂得為自己做最好的選擇，

因為貧賤夫妻百事哀，所以你沒有把握，

不輕易把自己 的青春交給命運的另一半，

你希望自己未來的期望值高於平均值，

選擇加班讓自己的薪水成長，

也比不斷下班聯誼尋找一張長期飯票來得好，

因為你知道自己找到一 個男人結婚，不等於永遠幸福美滿，

連PAY EASY都告訴你，期待下一次，不如靠自己。

遇到一個人很難，愛一個人更難，所以你選擇一個人。

不是你不願意相信了，只是你一直都還是相信。

兩個人也許是則美麗的童話故事，但一個人也可以是本精彩的自傳。