Wednesday, November 10, 2010

circles in our heart

there are a lot of people have the same experience as us in life
we can call them a friend when we have similar topics
the longer time we spend
the more experiences we share
we can call them a better friend
but we don't call everybody a best buddy in life
i ever encouter there are people who call everyone best buddy
and actually told me im the most important friend
so what exactly is it??
if we met so many peoples everyday
and you tell everyone they understand you most
so who is the exact important person to you
and how is it when someone you believe in betray you someday
you might choose to forgive them
but do you actually still believe in them??
we should learn to differentiate different groups of people in our life
i believe we all have our own circles in our heart
which meant for different people
who are a friend, family, even enermy to us
i have learn this from a friend
which we should not call everyone your best friend
although you think you are very close to them
because of too many similar topics, experiences
or maybe similar thinking
people who receive it will really expect something from you
because they will believe this statement when you tell them
what if when they realise you actually calling everyone a best friend??
and saying someone else simply understand you
someone simply read your thoughts and stuff
it hurts,.....it really do
don't ever believe someone's promises
people do change
you will never know what exactly is it in a person's mind
there are people that we can trust
we choose them to be
but not because of what they have told you
not because of they told you how important you are
they can choose you to be a person they believe in
but it doesn't mean you have to give them the same treatment
because we judge them by ourselves
whether to fit them into which circle in our heart
believe someone might cause yourself to get hurt in the end
think twice when you judge a person
if you think you are changing by age
they are the same like us
learn the way to protect yourself
stay strong with your thoughts
stay strong with your own statements
the best person we can believe in is our own
if you choose not to protect yourself no one will do

Monday, November 08, 2010

牺牲也可以快乐

爱情可以被归类成很多组
有的人可以拥有
有的人可以幸福
但最伟大的也许是牺牲
拥有一个不爱自己的人在身边
双方也未必快乐
也未必是幸福
在戏剧里往往付出最多的人得不到爱情不是吗
这就是我想说的伟大的爱情
心里是痛的
但是却不放弃支持着他爱的人
总是在一旁默默的帮助对方
就算是付出一切也无所谓
因为对方可以得到幸福
真正的快乐才是他的幸福
坚持没有错
但是强迫得来的感情
不但不会幸福
也许更会带来伤痛
不要为了得不到的爱情执著
到最后只会是两败俱伤而已
待在对方的身边
当他的守护者
因为他的快乐而快乐
也许还要幸福
至少你们可以是永远的朋友
甚至可以像家人一样
互相扶持
互相关心
分享着生活里的点点滴滴

Monday, November 01, 2010

忆起从前

有的人说中学生活最无知快乐
有的人说学院生活很开心自由
也许都是个快乐的回忆
最近想起18岁的我
是多么不堪
有人说当你爬得越快
就会掉得越快
以为认识了一般无所不谈的好友
却是一场恶梦
以为遇到了美丽的王子
却是一场美丽的梦
一切来得很快
但去得更快
对18岁生日抱着种种美丽的期待
却是一道又一道
无法痊愈的伤痕
是上辈子犯下的错
还是这辈子必换的罪
曾经那么的无知
从小就那么认为朋友多么可靠
其实现实生活里并不如此
其实身边的人是如此现实
当你一无所有的时候
他们只会在一旁观看
甚至有的撒多一把盐
够了。。一切都够了
无论是小学生的无知
中学生的幼稚
还是学院生的超级幼稚
因为家境不如他们一般被看扁也就算了
到底真心哪里出错
难道真心不如一时的脾气值钱吗??
虽然口不说但不代表心不知
我不是白痴
我心里懂的很
穷人无罪
没自信无罪
要是现实生活里
能够出现愿意付出真心的人
陪伴那黑洞里爬起的人
耐心帮助愿意改过的人
也许今天的我可以是一个有自信的人
也许今天的我为你付出的真心更多
即使你不稀罕
但是我就是那从来的笨蛋
总是厚着脸皮
在你们声旁苦苦哀求被你们接纳的我
但生活就是这样啊!!
生活比较好了
人们对你当然比较友善了
但我了得这只是生活上必有的应酬
我只会让你懂得
我会对于如何对待我的人
你付出30我还你60
你插我一刀我会还你十刀
因为我了得
往往只有付出真心的人才会得到伤痛
既然我的真心无价
何必换来痛苦
曾经的好我不会忘
曾经的恶梦更是心里的刺
但毕竟这是曾经
我不会因此而让自己过不去
好的怀的都已是过去
生活依然要过
我不会因为曾经的无知
让自己犯罪
如果你可以凭着良心对待
我依然不会抗拒
因为我相信成长也相信改变
我只想过的更简单一些而已

Sunday, October 31, 2010

one day

i need a little getaway
by myself
for a short one
to somewhere nobody knows me
to somewhere without telling anybody
needed a rest so much
but what would i do when im alone
where can i go when im alone
yet im so afraid to be alone
ain't i??
but why would i needed a get away by myself??
i have no f**cking idea
how i wish i could be selfish
i wanted to disappear 
how i wish i never being created
how i wish i am brave enough to leave
because i know nobody cares
because i know i ain't aimportant
because i know nobody would wonder
if i could ever disappear
but what would i do??
and my only hope was my mum
i love her
and i never want her to worried
and yet i have been created
so this is my life although nobody cares
i need to be around wherever my mum does
there could be a day
where i would leave
without telling anybody
without knowing where would i go
i need to set my soul free forever
it was too tight inside
which i couldn't hold it anymore
i need to release
how would i??
because my life has no choice
not say someone force me to be
but at least i know
i needed to be
because i was given by this way
so i know i have the responsibility to do so
and i will do so til the end of it
i will never ever say regret
because this is my life
where i work hard for it
i choose to do it by myself
no matter who i am
no matter what i do
because i do it with a clear conscience
i know im doing it right
i choose to do it for the one i love
dear my only supporter in my life
my dearest mum 
~~**heart**~~

ps: tell myself to be happy because i want you to be happy

Thursday, October 28, 2010

被挑起的痛

有些回忆
深存在心里
再怎么努力
再怎么不理
再怎么不想
其实它早已挥散不去
我们把它称为
癒合不了的伤痕
努力不回想
努力不提起
但一旦被挖掘
眼泪依然在打转
心依然会痛
因为曾经是那么努力
付出真心
没能得到回报没什么
可怕的是当心被糟蹋
心碎得掉落满地
再怎么弥补
伤痕依然清晰可见
爱情是如此
友谊依然如此
当心碎落满地
信心飘散而去
心里再也不会存在着相信
果然发现自私并不应有错
人应为自己而活
只有自己能为自己买得开心
伤痕无法被修补
设它为中心吧
让它成为警惕
好让自己不再犯错
让这伤痕累累的心休息吧
毕竟一切的一切太累人了
 别再触摸那伤痛
让它们安息吧