it's about time

maybe i should have start believing what God has arrange in my life

although i might not hoping for the luck to fall on me

but i know in my heart "it's about time"

kinda disappointed and of course a little of losing hopes

but i should have known that it wouldn't be a miracle

so maybe....this is the best time for me to make a move

it might be a hint from God 

this might be the proper arrangement for me

now i shall say to myself "it's about time"

look forward to what's gonna fall for me

i need a change..i need to move on...

Fighting!!

改变。。

生活上的步骤很难一一掌控
当机会来了
或许换一个生活方式
或许换一个生活环境
甚至是时间到了
所以必须做决定。。
没有完全的接纳
也没有完全的心里准备
只有你愿不愿意
只在乎于你有没有勇气
或许很多人不愿意改变
改变一贯的生活方式
改变一贯的生活水准
总是认为自己“不可以”
所以错过了机会
错过了黄金时段
年轻的时候不尝试
还能等到什么时候
因为辛苦所以不愿意
因为习惯所以不放手
因为执著所以不尝试。。。
总是有太多的理由为自己找借口
最后却错过了一切
这样的人生是你想要的吗？
因为害怕，因为习惯
让自己流下遗憾。。。
有的时候做决定必须有一股“冲动”
敢敢去做，敢敢尝试
或许这就是你梦想的开始
成功是自己建立的
生活水准是自己创造的
不应该让任何理由阻止你未来的去向
应该让自己建立自己想要的未来。。。

a special day for me

after years of living in SG

im getting more and more warmth lately

and specially for this year

i finally felt special 

having someone special to spend my day

also receiving a lot of well wishes

a lot more meaningful than those previous years

it shows that my theory is always right

when you being yourself for someone

they will see it 

they will feel it

be real and always treat others with true hearts

need not spending a lot of times together

but once a while 

a quality time that counts

made your time out of your busy schedule

they will totally understand you

they can tell you are making your effort

without realizing...they treat you the same way you did

for all the loves i get in this foreign land 

it means really a lot to me

people who know how to appreciate 

people who care

im happy!! at least for now

without worrying about future

we should enjoy and cherish what you have for now

last but not least...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

“一个人”

我喜欢冒险
我希望能有一个人陪我背包旅行

我喜欢旅游
我希望能有一个人陪我到处看世界

我喜欢煮饭
我希望能有一个人陪我研究每一道菜

我喜欢逛街
我希望能有一个人陪我逛街帮我提战利品

我喜欢聊天

我希望能有一个人陪我聊聊不完的事

我喜欢唱歌
我希望能有一个人陪我唱破喉咙

我很好动
我希望能有一个人陪我上山下海

我脾气很坏
我希望能有一个人陪在身边安抚我

我喜欢诉苦
我希望能有一个人会抱着我摸摸我的头说没关系

我喜欢工作
我希望能有一个人告诉我说其实可以不用这么累

我喜欢逞强
我希望能有一个人看见我的眼泪

 

 

其实我不喜欢一个人

我希望能有一个人告诉我说我不再是一个人

我们变得更远了。。

两个爸爸～

我以前不知道
可是我现在明白
这就是喜欢
我喜欢你～
我心里一直有你
喜欢一个人是一件好事
谢谢你让我喜欢你

喜欢一个人就会记得他喜欢的一切
我只是单纯的喜欢你
你不用回答我

可以让我喜欢你吗？

还欠她的一句话。。

周杰伦歌词里写说

“就是开不了口让他知道”

渐渐的感觉这句话的痛

真正的爱果然很难开得了口

对她的爱无人能敌

甚至一个真心的拥抱我也办不到

我的个性很硬

很难在爱的人面前谈“爱”

我知道如果我再不学习表达

我将来一定会后悔

离家久了才能发现我的爱来迟了

看着她脸上的皱纹

看着她岁月的摧残

发现我所能给的是那么的少

没能在您身旁我很惭愧

让您担心操劳我感罪恶

但是我曾答应自己我要给你最好的

却现在才发现原来钱不能被当作爱

生活再好没了家人的陪伴不算什么

踏出了这个家门我不曾后悔

因为为了让您有机会飞上云霄

让您在还有能力的时候还能看看世界

为了给你最好的我一个人不算什么

孤单让我坚强

是您让我坚强

我不会喊苦我不会哭

因为我知道这一切很值得

请您等我

等我能够有勇气对你说出那一句话

我知道不用多久

您一定能够听到我心里最深处的一句话

妈，我爱你！

期待着。。

当你有所期待
事情总是不会顺利发生
提醒自己不可期待
也没有勇气期待
但却明显发现我的心无法欺骗自己
我的确很期待。。。

快乐。。方舟

快乐是自找的

如果快乐可以用钱买得到

何乐而不为？

每个人快乐的法式不一样

我可以说我找到了属于自己的快乐

旅行是每个人的梦想

我的工作跟旅行有很亲密的关系

工作和旅行能够联合在一起真的不容易

很庆幸我和它们也有亲密关系

甚至能够毫无顾虑地策划属于自己的旅程

我爱去哪就上网查寻选择我那梦想的旅程

虽然我没有汽车洋房

虽然我的未来前程很渺茫

但是我很快乐我能够自己安排自己的时间

因为我拥有单身最快乐的自由

总是可以毫无顾虑的出发

不需要担心我不在的日子顾虑任何人的感受

就算是短短的四天也可以实现简单的旅途

偶尔放松心情让自己心灵身心好好休息一段

其实真的不难。。。

我不需要豪华的饭店

我不需要豪华的头等舱

我不需要豪华的晚餐

我只需要一段舒服简单的旅程。。。

它可以是一个繁忙的城市

它可以是下着雪的冰山

它可以是许多梯级的高山

它可以是我最爱的阳光沙滩。。。

原来我的快乐是我一直拥有却不被看在眼里的事

但我最期望的是～

寻找那一个单程机票的目的地 。。。

该是一个能够让我自由自在的城市？？

 一个能够让我体会生命的村庄？？

还是一个能够让我忘记烦恼的小岛？？

或许那就是我所盼望永远的快乐。。。

最近总是在想单程机票的目的地

是我害怕孤单了吗？？

 

世界那么大，

我该到哪里寻找属于我的方舟？？

单程票

终于有了一张单程车票

想一想还真的希望它是永远的单程车票

能够永远陪在家人身边

以后也不再需要说再见的旅程

有家谁不想回？？

能够团圆谁不希望完美？？

想一想我的确第五年没团圆了

一餐团圆饭真的很难求

在外地飞行求生活

看似简单看似自由看似快乐

其实可以很孤单

每一个旅程都是与陌生人的旅途

偶尔能够有个能聊的伴可以相伴

要不一个人逛街吃饭

要不待在一张床，一架电视，

还有一件隔离厕所的房间里

谁能够想像这种生活能有多快乐？？

能有多少人可以明白这种孤单

说害怕应该也习惯了吧！

自认自己比起很多不幸的人我很幸福了

或许不该再埋怨下去

除了坚持，还能怎样？？

爸，妈，你们也要坚持喔！

尝试相信

想要尝试确又害怕尝试

原来我是胆小鬼

我不想再等待

我不想被选择

我也希望能够被珍惜

越是等待越是害怕

害怕我再也不能够相信

不相信有被爱的资格

不相信自己

不相信别人

怀疑很累人吧！

踏出的每一步都是不归之路吗？

唯有希望艰难的开始是成功的启程

不回头是为了证明

证明可以相信自己

证明可以努力尝试

成功不是必然的

过程才是珍贵的知识

能够靠自己的毅力

能够靠自己的一步一脚印

就算是失败了还是值得的

要坚持！要努力！要相信！

只有这样才不会浪费我们的人生

成长的过程中

得珍惜任何一个失败的经历

吸取教训从新尝试

跌倒以后爬起来

依然有其它的路等你去走

我要的

如果说现在的我很好

如果说我什么都不缺

但是有那么一个渺小的要求藏在心里

一个我看不到，听不到，闻不到的

我要的你感觉到了吗？？

请你幸福

放下过去踏出第一步是一件好事

短短的三个月可以从新爱上另一个人

或许对我来说会很难

可是你做到了

之前你说为我的努力

你所谓的为我而改变

其实你对我的爱没你想象中的伟大

真正的努力和改变

不需要为任何人而承诺

其实你今天得到的成绩是你一直所向往的

其实我不该是你的理由

 你能够找到幸福

是我不再对你愧疚的解脱

请你一定要幸福。。。

累了

看透了 累了 无力了

很多事情不需要亲身体会也能够明白

其实你们都一样

都爱好撒网捕鱼

总是自私的认为

上钩的鱼越多越好

不需要理会上网以后被抛弃的感觉

只顾及自己的感受

其实单身更清楚明白痛苦是什么

只有自己能够照顾自己

心里再痛再苦也都必须保持微笑说没事

因为知道如果自己埋怨

也只会得到更多同情的眼光

因为毕竟一路走来

单身者总是身边好友的最佳良药

我们没有办法忍受平时被需要的自己

会变成被同情的无助者

不是自尊心作怪

只是不希望已经是一个人的自己

因为偶尔的脆弱而被讨厌被嫌弃

一个人的我们除了能够压抑自己

再辛苦也得坚持的我们

要是再失去朋友就真的什么都没了

坚强不就是累了躲在被里痛苦一场

然后以微笑期待着新的一天吗

有多少的梦

醒了就是醒了

至少还有精神梦一场

当你真正的精疲力尽以后

或许长眠是你下一个目标了

FGF

catch up with the girls today

just get to know that my FGF will be leaving to state soon

not for too long but two years

feeling a little upset

not because i got informed late

being we have not meet for very long

but im upset for her leaving

a gf who has been my companion for pass 2 years

being my listener, my kaki,.....being a really good friend

although she just gonna leave for 2 years

but its long enough for me to miss her lots

i never know if i were to quit flying 

i never know if i were to leave SG

how much i hate being left behind

in a way

i felt happy for her too

that she has found her true love

found her happiness

is my pleasure to have met you in my life

to be here with me for the pass 2 years

where i never felt lonely away from home

im sure we will never lose contact for the next 2 years

in fact never will in the future no matter where we are

i will never love you any lesser

~dear my FGF

just do it

it doesn't matter what is right and what is wrong anymore

isn't it life is just so unpredictable

not wrong if we choose to do things that we are happy with

i shouldn't have bother so much like before

i should have just do it by heart

isn't that my aim for life

i just wanna be happy

nothing further and it is simple

i will do it for myself once in my life time

we never know what will happen tomorrow

let's cherish time and chances

do it when it falls right in front of you

no one gonna blame you for your choice of living

no one should have affect any decision for your life

i will bare in mind

saying that i will take any consequences for choosing this

a path that i have never been

but worth trying since im ready for that

all i need is your support

whatever it is....i will do my best

just to enjoy max in life before we lose it

all the best for the unforeseen future :)

to love them

is another year end

where all the festival falls
while we suppose to have some holidays
but i wasn't home for my love ones
in fact i never do
due to my job
where i need to be working specially on holiday seasons
also when i felt sick
mum's call but i couldn't ever speak to her
i felt so sorry
when i know that she is so worried about me all times
is gonna be another new year
how scary is time flying

im always afraid seeing my parents getting older

yet i have done nothing for them

a lot may think that i have given them a lot

but in fact i have only given them support in financial aspect

but never in living aspect

i can never accompany them everyday

but only to visit them once in a while

by seeing them getting older every time i visit home

when will be the time i could be there for them everyday

how could be a better way to express my love to them

im so afraid when times come and i will lose them forever

i can never imagine how i could live without them

i hope i could do something better in life

i hope i could have more times for them

when will be the time i could have a better career

which allow me to be with them most time

to travel with them

to shop with them

to cook for them

just want to be there for them

i don't wish to have any regrets towards them in my life

neither to theirs

i wish to have fulfill their wish as being their daughter

not only to make them proud of what i am doing

but also to be there for them anytime anywhere

i want nothing much in life

but only to see the happiness on their face

isn't it that much i can do for them as being their daughter

i believe they have provide me a good enough living in the past

is time for my returns

is time for me to have do something for them

i hope it's never too late for me to prove them my love

im sorry

够了

无法再忍受不必要的压迫感

你的逼近让我感觉很厌恶

i'm sorry

you are not my prince charming

向往自由

我以为射手爱自由是见仁见智

但最近却发现我的确很热爱自由

不喜欢被约束的感觉

甚至有那么一点讨厌

是因为单身久了吗

还是就我自己的任性自我

虽然做事不能随心所欲

但却不能不听从心里的话

方向错了很难回头

其实很多时候错过的事情无法再回头了

原来再怎么努力尝试结果都是一样的

至少该庆幸我是清醒的

至少懂得自己要的是什么

不希望自己的错误伤害任何人

不如让一切顺其自然

慢慢的再决定什么是最适合自己的吧

warm

i love spending my day off meeting up my friends

but i never have such feeling like today

catch up with a hometown friend is totally different

speak the language that we so use to it

talk like we are in our own world

gossip about what happen in hometown 

talk about the past

talk about the food

talk about the changes

is that kind of warm feeling in the cold world

that's the wonderful part of having a "hometown friend"

feel love tonight

tired??

when this guy ask:" How's flying so far? Feeling bored or tired? "

i answered:" Im tired because im alone in Sg where my family n friends are all away. There's where i felt how important these people are for me. "

hope it will never be too late for me to know that

i miss home and friends more often than before

so reluctant to back in Sg nowadays

im really...seriously....freaking tired.... >.<

where is my Mr.right??

i wanna quit working!! LOL