we do have questions

if we ever have to run for success

how far could the distance be

if we ever have to fight for our rights

how much war could there be

if we ever have to fall to grow

how much scar could that be

if we ever have to carry responsibilities

how firm could the shoulder be

if we ever have to hold the friendship

how hard could it be

if we ever have to chase after happiness

how fast could the speed be

if we ever have to tie up a relationship

how strong could a knot be

if we ever have to turn back

how the earth could be

if we ever have to doubt our own

how fair could the GOD be

if we ever have to praise everyone

how peace could the world be

if we ever have no doubts no questions

how happy could we all be

cheers ^.^

for life

 ever since the day we met

since the day get to know each other

ever since we keep in touch

since we hang out one after another

we talk we share

we play we laugh

every moment we spent together

just to let you know

if you say i am your friend

i will say you are my buddy for life

if you say i am your buddy

i will say i will irritate you for life

if you say you ever understand me

i will say i know you by heart

if you say you care about me

i will say i worried about you

if you say you will grab me when i fall

i will say i will hold you every single moment

if you say you like me

i will say i always think of you

if you say you miss me

i will say nothing but smile because i miss you even more

if you say you love me

i will say i can't live without you

do believe me

i might not like to bring it out in words

but i will always think of it by heart

i know and i cherish 

things that you have ever done for me

i will always pay you double the way you pay me

i never know friends in different stages

i will only pick up friends from different stages

no matter who we are

because we will walk along til the end

friends we know

people we cherish

we need not speak in words

we show it by actions

we know it by heart

this is a long term relationship we looking for

here we are

there we go

not to compare how much time we have spent

but how much effort we have pay

the relationship we pay for life

the barrier

our thinking really make our day differently

if you are having good mood day ahead

you will realize nothing could spoil your day

if you feel depress beginning of the day

neither a compliments make your day

people do have emotions

just to see how we handle it 

or how we want to bring it to our days

it may not just gonna affect our day

but it will also affect people around us

i admit that i'm not a person who can handle my emo well

i should say i can not handle it at all

i can be so emo most of the time

i think one of the main reason 

is because i am very stuborn

i don't really listen to others' advice

i keep thinking no one could understand me 

neither anyone cares

i feel bad that i have this thought

while so many people worried

will that be i'm so afraid of believe in anyone

i guess i am

will that be the barrier in me is too high??

which hardly allow people touches my heart

how could i cut down the barrier in me

since we couldn't forget about our memories

maybe i should have build it firm instead of high

so that it could be stride over easier

because i believe i have a soft heart too

just to see if i willing to let go

or to open it wider for the others

give me some times i guess

until the day i would let go everything in mind

or the day someone touches my heart

emo-ing

the feeling of heart got stuck

feel the difficulties in breathing

got the feeling of take a walk

have the feeling of talking to someone

but you just not doing anything at all

nothing could help

just got stuck by something

since the night before

which was my sleepless night

don't ask me why

i have no idea at all

might got a hint to the answer

but i refuse to know

i just don't want things to happen again

i don't want to get disappointed anymore

just feel emo

while i needed to talk

and there is no one to reply me in sms

neither on the msn

there are so many names appear on the line

there are so many contacts in the phone

where you realize there isn't anyone you can talk to

i might just need something to distract me

out off this stupid feeling

the feeling that killing me

the feeling that burning my heart

i hate this feeling

the feeling of waiting or expecting

yet it was so empty in there

where no one can fill it up

*yes, i was the one ruin everything*

my imaginary dreamland

i doubt myself because you doubt

i expect myself because you expect

i feel the joy because of your overjoy

i feel disappointed because you are disappointed

i eat because you love to eat

i said im fat because you are way so far from fat

i never be slim because you are way too slim

i get emo because you have emo

i get upset because you do upset

i laugh because you always laugh

i care because you said you care

i work really hard because you ask me to work hard

i have no confidence because you lose confidence on me

i will give up because you choose to give up between us

i equal everyone because you choose to equal me with others

i do remember because you never remember

i get annoy because you are annoying

i buy clothes because your wardrobe has all kind of clothes

i dress up because you always dress up

i make up because you never live without make up

i save money because you need not worried about money

i love everyone because you get loved easily

i study because you score without study

i drive because you always lazy to drive

i travel to learn because you never need to learn for knowledge

i keep you accompany because you can't do anything without accompany

isn't that i am living on the other's behalf

not about love

not about relationship

but just a simple friendship

friendship towards friends that i care

their words make the difference

the difference of my emotionals

the difference of my thinking

i did not get myself improve although i care

is that because i overlook myself

to observe peoples around 

follow their requirements

do whatever they do

i always try to be in the group wherever i go

i work hard to catch the steps after everyone

never want to be the best

i can't imagine how much more i have done

isn't this just like a small kids

working hard to catch the attentions of their parents

nevertheless it never works

there i realize i never live in my own life

im just living in the imaginary dreamland

where nobody exist nobody cares