it could be the last

it was untouchable and it is over

thinking it is a good start

at least something simple 

never expected to be something further

it's been shut off without knowing a reason

it wasn't the end

there are normal conversations going on

for once or twice

it ended third the latest

without expectations

let it go as per normal

just let it be the simplest

knowing this would be the dead end
without any turns nor exits

which could be the best

keep it the admiration

with the feel of missing deeper in heart

it's the last time for today

which will never be remind further more

good night to the world

say goodbye to the heart beat

something which only kept in the memories

it was great enough to be store

although it was short 

although it meant nothing at all

thank you 

there is another line to be draw in my heart

if you care

is not about how good you can memorize 

is about how much effort you put on

is about how much you care for

i believe i remember whatever people said to me

in terms of good or bad comments

in terms of about me or even yours

i believe i remember most

because i care

妥协

人生， 其实很简单

不就是让自己从起跑点奔向终点吗

就像乘搭飞机

买一张机票 选择你想要到达的目的地

只是没人能够预料向往的目的地

会否跟想象的一样而已

一旦选择了乘搭这班机

起飞以后就无法回头

甚至是无法预料的意外

也不会是在我们的控制范围以内

或许我们不应该顾虑得太多

只要努力向目的地狂奔就好了

自小就比较独立的我

一直努力锻炼自己

希望当一个坚强独立的女强人

以为自己买对了机票

乘上了对的航班前往那梦寐以求的地点

却发现方向弄错了

但早已回不了头

或许是因为踏入了安全地带

也感觉我已精疲力尽了

原以为自己可以很坚强

但其实那只是自己给套上了面具

想说这样可以把自己保护的更好一些

事实上却是伤痕累累的

一道又一道越来越深的伤痕

早已无法给遮掩了

不得不妥协

在人们口中那个独立坚强的我

其实我的心是脆弱的

就像那传说里

女人的心像玻璃 一碰就碎

心软虽然容易带来热情

也很容易付出真心

但它更容易受到伤害

多少次天真的以为

只要愿意付出真心

就可以被肯定 被相信

却发现世界太大

现实生活太复杂

人情世故太累人了

原来自己什么都不是

其实我的存在根本就不重要

什么真心 什么努力

根本没有人愿意去感觉

根本没有人愿意去接受

根本就没有人在乎吧

累了 真的累了

不得不承认一个人坚持真的很累

累得无法呼吸

或许会有人好奇的说

既然那么累 那么辛苦

为何还愿意咬紧牙根撑下去

也许没有人了解我那动力的重要性

甚至自己无法想象

哪一天我要是失去了它

我将演变成什么角色

或许也不会又人在乎吧

也许自己顶多是一个微不足道

甚至比显微镜下的纤维细小的小女人而已

a word

have you ever think of a word to describe yourself??

i should say i never

but a word is given by others -- CooL

how does it describe me??

something which they can't explain to me as well

i thought this will be shown only when i was in short hair

but not exactly

it's just a word for me since collage i guess

because i used to be in short and cool hair cut

and now i realize it isn't come from the appearance

it was something right inside me 

the way i carry myself

the way i behave

i might think the best elaboration is because im independent

i will do whatever i think is right

just be myself and do not care what others think of me

because this is my life

and i need not to explain what i wanna do

i have no idea what transform me into this

i actually have no idea why they put this on me

no much explanations were given

they can't even think of it when i asked them

so just let it be

let it be the word for me

but trust me that i have a warm heart...lol

i guess this is also a reason why

people always think i wasn't my age

and maybe this is best to describe

where the blue fairy does exist

单身不是罪

不要问我为什么单身

这问题根本就没有答案

你要我怎么回答

难道单身有那么奇怪吗

真的搞不懂

如果有人爱 如果有人疼

谁不想要啊

孤单不可怕 寂寞不是毒

我单身也不是错 

请不要再问我奇怪的问题了

我也会累 我也是有感觉的

我也希望累了会有宽大的胸膛可以躺

我也希望难过时会有肩膀让我靠

我也希望每当开心时有人陪我大笑

我也希望饿了有人陪我吃饭

我也希望闷了有人陪我看戏逛街做我爱做的

我也希望生日可以有惊喜

我也希望特别节日不再埋头工作

我也希望某时某刻被谁惦记着

我也希望我的电话因谁而忙碌

我也希望有那么一个第一时间出现在我脑海里的谁

为我担忧 为我操劳 为我分担 

陪我大笑 陪我流泪

单身不是罪 单身也可以过的很开心

单身依然要生活不是吗？？

真的有必要每时每刻想着如何结伴吗？？

一个不懂得爱自己的人又如何爱人呢？？

好好为自己而活 做回自己不就很好吗？？

是你的就是属于你的 不属于你的无法强求

缘分要来时 自然就会来了

停留疑惑还不如努力前进

每当太阳升起的时候就会是充满新希望的一天

命运无法掌控 也无法玩弄

一切听天由命 顺其自然吧！！