一个人生活

在这么先进的世界里

再没有什么男女之别

现在的女性甚至可以比男性来得强

甚至还要独立

原本就很男孩性格的我

在朋友的眼里总是一个很坚强

很独立，天不怕，地不怕的女生

事实是这样吗？？

曾经以为我什么都不怕

以为自己很坚强

但原来我什么都不是

原来我也害怕孤单

自从我离乡背井到一个完全陌生的环境时

原本很坚强的我反而变得更依赖人了

发现我不能没有朋友在身边

没有他们的陪伴，日子很寂寞

总是一个人吃饭

总是一个人逛街

虽然当中可以享受那一个人的自由

时间久了

反而觉得有那么一点的无趣了

没有人陪你谈心

没有人第一时间得知你的快乐与难过

没有秘密的我自然也好像比较封闭了

虽然还是很乐意与人分享我的故事

但他们应该不懂吧

毕竟可以相处的时间很短

真正想要找到一个知心朋友不容易

甚至朋友也得花好多时间

带着那厚脸皮

才有那小猫两只吧！！

是的，好的朋友不需要很多

但毕竟我们能见面的机会真的很难

又更何况是要找一个懂我的人呢？？

本来就没什么信心的我

更没有办法建立起信心来了

每当我来到朋友面前总是忙着诉苦

不喜欢更不愿意让任何人担心的我

反而在他们面前，我是脆弱的

烦恼更是一箩一箩的多

但是每当我一个人的时候还要轻松

就连我自己也搞不清楚这到底是为什么

是因为累了吗？？

因为自己一个人承担一切而累了吗？？

也许一个人生活真的很累，很寂寞

很懊恼这样的自己

真的很不愿意在他们面前表现得如此脆弱

更不愿意任何人替我担心

因为我想要的是身边的人都过得比我开心

这也许就是我的使命吧！！

宁愿牺牲也不愿看见他人的痛苦

因为我一直都把身边所有的人

排在我心里的最前方

就算自己受了委屈

在背后自己一个人忍受难过

也不愿意解释

以为我相信只要愿意付出

还是可以得到认可

相信有那么一天他们还是会懂我的

就算不懂

至少我没有做任何伤害别人的事就好了

因为我知道他们对我的付出

还是有的

至少我不开心发牢骚

他们会静静的陪在我的身边

任由我发我的脾气

就算是他们的耳膜即将被我割破似的

这一切已很足以满足我了

因为我不再执著我会是谁的谁

也因为我懂了

没了我，他们有他们的生活

没了他们，我也得生活

我们有各自的路要走

如果今天能够走在一起就很好了

虽然不懂我们大家还能一起走多长远的路

至少我们曾经一起走过

我们曾经一起努力奋斗过

我也不想再把任何人放在我的前方

努力告诉自己

时间，可以把我改变

让我学习如何看得自己还要重要

努力为自己而活

也许更有意义吧！！

也因为我相信那一个把我排在前方的人会出现

what is this?!?

its been a month

having this strange feeling in my heart

have i fallen in you

there is no answer to be given by anyone

not even by myself

which i have no confidence in this anymore

no hope no expectation

because i get enough disappointment

because i get enough hurts

its just a week the moment we have spent

which i know it could be easy to fall

it is difficult to let go

i'm not sure about this feeling

but i know it clearly that i'm missing you

and i know it clearly this is not as deep as in love

just feeling like a fool

where i'm so use to stare at the blank screen of my phone

either the wallpaper of my computer

waiting for you news

a feeling which i'm trying to hold it back

which i will not have any expectations nor hopes

this is good enough as it started smooth

as long i get to hear from you

as long i get to see you

i know nothing better about you

neither you know anything about me

this is just a start

which we wouldn't know what's fated on us

i will like to give it a try if it is given to me

i just wish everything goes as normal it could be

as smooth as i wish

as natural as it is given to us

what i could do at this point

just wish to hear from you as often as we do

to see you as normal as meeting a friend

let's God draw us the way we could go

always believe the way which given to us is the brightest way

there is always a reason whichever way that's given to us

'Toy Story 3' Trailer HD

i believe everyone has watch this
i said i wanna watch this when this show release
and my friend asking me:
"are you still a kid??"
i was like silent
because i always believe that Disney cartoons are good to watch
and it is actually suitable for all groups
luckily i met this girl during my training
so we went to watch the show
the ending touches my heart
and i cried,....yes,....i know im crazy....lol
you know it's like you never know someone will love his toys so much
even until the day he needs to leave them
how i wish i could meet someone like this
i believe a guy like him will be someone very sincere
haha,....i think we all looking for someone like this right??
anyway,...there are lots more movies waiting for me....
Inception,...Salt,....lots more coming,....
i wish i will be able to catch it all....
which im so outdated nowadays...sigh...

sharing the memories of ROSE

was reading an email send by a friend

it touches my heart

which is not a touching love story

nor any touching stories

but the words that being told

which taught us in life and make us grow

let me share with you guys

" There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy, and achieving success. You have to laugh and find humor every day. You've got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die. "

" We have so many people walking around who are dead and don't even know it! "

" There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up. "

" If you are nineteen years old and lie in bed for one full year and don't do one productive thing, you will turn twenty years old. If I am eighty-seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything I will turn eighty-eight. " 

" Anybody! Can grow older. That doesn't take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding opportunity in change. Have no regrets. "

 

" The elderly usually don't have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets.... "

REMEMBER, GROWING OLDER IS MANDATORY. GROWING UP IS OPTIONAL. We make a Living by what we get. We make a Life by what we give.

to town

suppose to sing k today

but my buddy having bad headache

so decided just to meet up for lunch

so that she could get well soon

but anyway it was a sudden plan for the meet today

so as long the plan still onz on the 12th

it would be fine for me,...hehe

realise that i have not been to town for so long

can't even remember when was my last time

feel so strange suddenly,...haha

had porridge which is not so nice

which we think we can even cook better than this

hmm,...but wondering how could other people so enjoy

anyway we just left once we are done

and Rebecca went for her facial

and i got back home and wait for the standby call up

woohoo...best call up flight ever

KL turn.....chop chop finish and over it....

God bless....

mention God bless and i keep on sneeze the whole day

since i step into the train

am i sensitive to the lady sitting next to me or what??

ish,...irritating....sneeze til now...

hope im not sick *.*