im not...

'm not upset for being corrected
i'm not upset because i couldn't accept my weakness
i'm not upset being told if i have done wrong
it's just depends on how's the way you bring it up
i'm upset just because i thought i could have done better

i do appreciate if you corrected me

i do appreciate if you tell me what is wrong with me

but it would be much appreciate if you have put it in a better way

is not shameful to be corrected

it should be glad if there is someone around to help you for improvements

i accepted it and being quiet at the moment

it's because i admit that is a fact

it doesn't matter about self-esteem

it's just a very basic knowledge to all of us

is to shows respect

specially if you say that i'm a person that you thought you know so well
then you shouldn't have say that i'm upset because i can't accept for being corrected
but who knows if i'm working on it??
do i need to tell everyone about this??
i believe people can tell the truth by the time i have improve
i believe that if a person who is so good in terms of their work or life
we need not to speak it out
people can see by their eyes

people can feel it by heart

if you think you are good
prove it instead of say it
i believe talent is very important
but without learning,...talent still means nothing to me
if you say you have good talent for being a good leader
without guidance, without advices, without doing so in experiences....
do you think you can handle it??

everyone makes mistake

everyone has own strengths and weaknesses

but i still believe practice makes perfect
no one can walk since the day they were born
if you really think you have know me so well
and shouldn't have anyone to compare with you
it shouldn't be the way of correcting me
i'm a person who needs encouragement instead of competent
if you are looking for a competent
sorry,....i wasn't the one you looking for
i just want my life to go step by step instead of climbing up high without challenge

i rather to take longer and tougher steps

which i get to see more, learn more,.....

at least i'm using my own experiences

from what i see,...what i hear when i'm sharing.....

i still believe the smaller the step you take will bring you to a further distance
without your acknowledgement,....without your encouragement,....

i still can go further

because i'm no longer a person being stop by barrier

i know how to jump over the barrier

and there are much more peoples standing around the field

by the track and cheer for me

these are people who help us in life

but not people who waited at the goal end of the track    
by telling you how well you have done today
put yourself as a runner on a running track
ask yourself which you needed most
people who praise on you or people who support you??
welcome for any of your answer or feedback
which i can improve myself and learn from you as well

xoxo

Yvonne aKa ai Wen

a memorable April......

its been a long time i have not update my condition

how have i been??....

for people who have not hear from me for years

im doing good.....although it was a busy April to me

but it was a great one

met peoples who i had fun with

and catching up with friends in M'sia

although it pass too quickly which i cant even feel it

but i know it is mainly because i have enjoy it very much

its like time by pass when you are happy

which you will not notice

honestly it was a quick one

but i have not miss out a single little moment

because i believe i have spent it wisely

isn't happiness we were asking for all time??

i had mine in April 2010

a very memorable one

have you??

get yourself once

at least there is something special in memory about 2010

my memories of April 2010

Cairo 8 Apr

Subang 13 Apr

Lake Como, Milan 19 Apr

hey friends

there is a new page of mine

http://lovesinair.blogspot.com/

which from now on

i will use the above link page as my travel intro page

check it out people

thanks for supporting.....muakxx

如果 分手

从一开始的互不熟悉，到如今的彼此了解；

从一开始浅薄的想念，到如今深深的眷恋；
从最初很在意在你面前的形象，到现在的毫无顾忌；
从当初的不知道该怎么爱你，到现在不知道该如何分离。
一路走来，经历了很多，我们也都付出了很多。

如果.....
如果我们真的分手，
你会怎样？
如果我们分手了，
我一定会感到很寂寞无助，
耍性子闹脾气的时候会感到闷得慌，
电话短信都不知道该发给谁。

如果我们分手了，
我一定会恨自己的自以为是，
原本总以为，
不管我们交错多少次，
总可以再找到时间地点，
重新牵起彼此的手，
可却只是自己的一厢情愿罢了。

如果我们分手了，
在一起那些痛苦的记忆会无限缩小甚至蒸发，
而幸福的回忆却只会日益膨胀，
到最后甚至忘记为什么分手，
仅仅只是想你，想你，想你。

如果我们分手了，
就算删掉你的手机号码，
我一定还是能倒背如流，
在夜深人静的时候红着眼眶，
慢慢按下那些键，
却始终找不到理由拨出去，
即使你淡出我的生命，
却仍然占据我的记忆。

如果我们分手了，
我会把你送给我的东西，
写给我的文字，
统统藏起来，
然后在夜深人静的时候不断拿出又放好，
想看又不敢再碰触。

如果我们分手了，
我一定还是不会删掉那些照片，
摘掉那根红绳，
因为曾经的每一次争吵都让它们来来去去，
可是这一次如果我删了，
我delete了，
它们就不再回来了。

如果我们分手了，
我不想再看见你，
因为我害怕那时的你在我的眼前，
我还是想牵牵你，
抱抱你，亲亲你，
但是我已经没有资格了。

如果我们分手了，
我还是想你和你做朋友，
这样在我想你的时候，
我可以想着还能找你，
虽然我也许并不会这么做。

如果我们分手了，
我一定会害怕出门，
因为无论到哪里，
都有我们的回忆，
背着我牵着我到处乱逛的你，
看着我流泪会陪我一起伤心的你，
陪着我发疯陪着我快乐的你，
几乎把所有的零花钱都花在我身上的你，
因为给我准备了惊喜而自己开心半天的你，
在凛冽的寒风又或者飘泊的雨中还是会等我的你，
因为我乱玩，乱吃东西，胡作非为而大发雷霆的你，
每一次都被我搞的崩溃却依旧每一次都原谅我包容我来找我的你。

遍地留下了自己的痕迹，
最后却跑掉的你。
如果，

如果，
如果我们真的分手，
我一定不想的。

请记得，
如果我们分手了，
我还是等你的电话，
回你的短信，
在你需要我或是想见我的时候出现，
你是我的独家记忆，

一直在心底。

平行线

一个操场，六个跑道
一个道路，两条平行线

你 走你那幸福快乐的路
我 有我享受独立的生活

我们 拥有 各自的幸福 各自的快乐
我们 都在 各自的跑道 各自的平行线上

偶尔相见 偶尔交谈
但是 我们就像两条平行线
一个靠左 一个靠右
永远都不可能 化变成一个交叉点
就像那拍不响的 一个手掌
也像那阴与阳 永远都无法相吸
但却无法没有彼此的存在

因为那道路 需要两个来回的方向
因为每个人 需要两双手互相扶持
因为阴与阳 拥有各自的力量相助

一个名词 已不足以取代 我们之间的关系
一个名词 已不足以表达 我们之间的联系

伤痕虽无法被删除 疑问虽无法被解除
但是那曾经存在的疙瘩 已被我们的努力铲除掉了
虽然偶尔思念 虽然偶尔回忆
但是却认清了事实 不再渴望
只待光阴的飞逝 把它带到云霄以外
让那空气把它吞没 还我那小鸟般的自由
好让我毫无牵挂的搬迁 飞出那结了冰的冬天
呼唤着那春天的来临 牵引着新的一道彩虹

visit Malacca~~

happen to have a 3 days off after my Moscow/Houston

decided to visit one of my girl friend in Malacca

since we have not meet for quite sometimes

and we actually planned to stay over someday

although there is only me who can make it

but is good enough for just the two of us to spend time together

i am no longer a miss sunshine

because i brought rain to Malacca for this weekend

which we cant go anywhere

hmm,.....but we manage to come to this nice place

which i don't know what's the name

must ask Justina to reply me the name of it,.....lol

the food isn't excellent but i think is a nice place to have dinner

or just even for a chill out section with friends

not only the first day was raining
the same goes to the following days
which we actually wanted to go Jonker Walk
end up we just had layer cheese cake and coffee for tea break
stay home all the while and chit chatting with auntie
although this trip isn't goes smooth like what i have thought
but i do enjoy the time that i have spend with Justina's family
just take it a relax trip after a long haul flight
is always great to have all girls talk in an air-con room
and this is what i love to see from a family
where the childs and the parents can get along with
they are very close to one another
they can talk about everything and anything
which hardly happen to me with my parents

~barbeque time~

where they use to do it once in a while

enjoy it after all grills are done

and have some wine together with the grill

such an enjoying weekend i had

which i will not have it in SG

very soon that this is the last nite i have in Malacca

girls spend time sharing our stories before we go to bed

there is always a goodbye at the end of the day

i get back to where i belongs to

and they have to start another working day

all we can do is just to wait for the next meet up

i had a great time with all of you

miss auntie,both sisters and of coz my bestties Justina

all the advices and stories that we have shared

will arrange another visit as soon as possible.......take care ^.^